Bye

manyak problem here.

Moved

Be Right Back

Sien. Ending soon. Tied up with nothing.
Past is booming with joy. Glad.
Getting old, going places, back to norm.
Surreal. Ethereal, whatever you wanna call it.
I call it content.

I heart movie lovers

some people just have too much free time to play a movie in slow-mo

=) anyone for rambo?

Resah

Berapa lama harus aku tunggu
Kata setuju kamu
Kau biar aku menanti pilu

Kau diam bisu buat aku keliru
Mana tuju hatimu
Usah biar ku resah menunggu

Raut wajahmu bisa ditelahku
Kau masih belum tentu
Apa ada rasa dalam hatimu

Datang padaku cerita padaku
Ungkapkan rasa itu
Apa saja buat hilang ragumu

Sesungguh tak kau tahu
Diriku ada kamu
Akan ku relakan semua ada ku untukmu
Mungkin bila kau tahu
Mungkin bisa kau temui jiwaku
Usah biar terusan begitu

Another Wedding Bell

Imagine a childhood friend who played in the same football team as you back in high school,

A friend who travelled to numerous 'padang' just for a friendly match under the scorching sun,

A friend who holds no grudge when you laugh at him when he tries to "ber-speaking"

A friend who laughs together with you when he told you that he just shaved only one of his legs,

A friend who invited you to his house during Hari Raya and the best nasi goreng you've tasted,

A friend who includes you to sleepover at his place intially for group study but end up playing wrestling instead,

A friend who doesn't care about race but instead treat you like his own kind.

That was 10 years ago, and finally on his big day, he decided to share his joy with us and finally tied the knot. Friends like these are surely hard to come by. For that I'm grateful.

Congratulations to Inspector Rafizan and his wife! May you and your spouse have many great loving years ahead.

ps: Now I know who to look for when I have samans =)

First post of the year

Yay, my first post. Honestly I have lots to blog about and am just to lazy to do so.
Work is taking its toll on me and the happenings around is somewhat adding to the laziness. Its like everything is clogged up and there's only so little room to talk about it. I rather talk it over the phone or MSN chat and not sharing it with anyone.

Yup, that's me now, in 2008 that is. I feel everything is going against my will and in some occasion nothing that I can do about it. So helpless. So freaking tired.
I wake up everyday only to look forward to my next holiday and also seeing her online. That's about it. My eating habit has not been a normal one. Sometimes i feel like i can gobble up a whole cow and just sometimes my tummy couldnt fit a grain of rice.

Sleepless nights. I feel the mounting hours of staring blankly at the ceiling taking its toll on me. Feeling zombified at some point. It happened quite frequently lately and the only time I get to sleep well is during the weekends. So, yup, my weekends are mostly spend on the bed and i even skipped meals during then. Lucky enough, my eyebags are already there, so its not that significant anyway.

It hasn't been a good start of late, two of my friends are in the hospital for all the wrong reasons, someone I've met before died innocently in a hit-and-run incident, I have presentation to the management due next week and I haven't start anything yet, I had two 'beef jerky' from the police for having lunch which I know it is my fault, my mom who will be undergoing surgery and I'm totally terrified by it. Someone who lives alone by herself in a foreign land and worried sick for her safety sometimes. Yea that basically sums up the 10 days into the new year. Alot to digest, but its going well I guess, so far. Maybe I should start praying again at night.

Oklar, no more depressing stories for the time being, I hope after Chinese New Year will have better days to come.

2007; the year that was..

In less than 24 hours, we usher in a new year.
2007 has been a heck of a year to reminscence. Many things happened and memories are made out of this. Sweet, sad, dissapointment, renewal, new hope, fresh start, whatever, you name it you've got it all in the span of 12 months.

The multiple breaks helped alot in burying the skeletons and let's just leave the bones where it's supposed to be. The stars and planet are just not alligned every day and the least we can do is make the very best out of it.

Just when we thought that all is lost, a new shade of light somehow manage to find its way to give new hope. What's dark became bright and what's impossible somehow became possible. In that sheer moment, I feel alive. I guess that's life and one way for God to tell us its okay and everything will be alright. It feels better thinking that way doesn't it?

Looking back at how the year went, '07 sure pass by pretty damn fast.

Believed in God...again
First time meeting new cousin
Visited Bali/Singapore and hopefully will be another visit anytime soon
Heartbroken and moved on
Got a new job, lets see how it goes
Made mistakes, alot of them and shouldn't have done it
Caused multiple scars that will haunt me forever
Friends got married/engaged
Made new friends, lost old friend
Accidents, let people bang, bang people doesnt really matter does it. Luckily no major ones.
Grateful to those who stood by even for the storm.
Touched by many people whom I would never have thought about it before
and many many other events regardless of whether its big or small, it all happened.

Good things will come eventually when we're not looking, when we least expect it to be. We all have dramas in our live, high or low, I'm just grateful that after all the turbulence months, I'm still sane enough to be writing this post at 1.26am on new year's eve.

Let's hope that '08 will be a better year for all of us, both health and wealth,
and thank you for all the footprints that are left in my heart, all the best and God bless.

Vanilla Coke with Dark Circles

1.39 a.m
I can't sleep !!!!!@#$$#%$^$&

HELP

Been weeks since I had a good one. I do not want to succumb to sleeping pills.

Maybe its the supper. But but its food, its a sin to deny 'em.

When will I see you again?

Only in my dream you exist. Please come back soon.

The Soft Dive of Oblivion

Just when I'm all ready to go home for a nice hot shower, the nature has its way of playing a fool out of me.
Yup, raining cats and dogs outside and my stomach is playing the usual orchestra at this time of the hour.

Fail.

I should have known earlier. Wasn't a good sign to begin with ; gloomy clouds and the smell of rain from a distance. I'm alone now. In the office at least, everyone has gone home. Not a usual sight. Haha

Two things that are lingering in my mind right now.
What awaits me for dinner and the magazine on the shelves!
You had your way of getting back at me haven't you. Sigh
Such weakness I have in me. And I thought it was going ok, why do you have to reappear again out of nowhere. Well at least it got me going for the day. I'm proud of what you've done. Really.
With a faint smile I wonder, how's it going to be?

Two more days and counting. A break, finally.
Is there anything I'm going to miss?
I wonder.

Maybe the ferris wheel and the road up hill.

At least I've got my bus ticket home. Such a daddy's boy. What would I do without you around. ;)

The longest week

It has been raining for the past whole week now.
10 days gone, less than a week to go and my heart is racing.
I need to get out of here.

Really.

Eventhough it's a short escapade, I still need be there to fill my thoughts with junk or perhaps unseen beauty? Who knows what awaits behind this few hours, who would know best but only you. One who hops and got me thinking whole night. Why did you came when it's cloudy?

Crap.

Life is not a box of chocolate. It's a load of cow dunk. Seriously. Life sucks when we think too much. Way way way too much till it become a disease. An uncurable plague of mind eating thought. Eats you up, inside out leave you alone and then attacks you from different angle.
Leave you defenseless, like a level 3 hero up against a level 25 hero.

Renewal.

Two weeks till O eight. It's been a tiring year. Emotionally and physically. I'm aging rapidly inside. The outer part is just a disguise.
Everything's changing. Those days where we stand still and wait for the wind to pick us up are long gone. Nothing's real now, everything's made believe and thats where everything goes wrong. When we stop believing.
I hope it's not a cycle, this life is made for more.

Well christmas is coming, and please let it be a white one. Nothing fancy, just a quiet holiday in a foreign land. A good time to start believing again. Come what may =)

Cheerios and Merry X-mas.