Monday, April 16, 2007

Dumbstruck

Have you ever been in love?

Horrible isn't it?
It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up.
You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...

You give them a piece of you.
They didn't ask for it.

They did something dumb one day, like smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore.

Love takes hostages.

It gets inside you.

It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart.

It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind.

It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.

I hate love

14 comments:

Anonymous said...

Yeap. When things are going perfect, you feel like you are in seventh heaven. When things turn sour, it makes you all weak and lifeless.

The happiness that you feel is only for those moments that you are with that person. The painfulness that you feel lingers on forever.

But we all still fall in love, don't we...

Anonymous said...

dont worry,
i love you.

GkWithLove said...

Agree...and it will bcome the worst nightmare in your life eventhough u thought u r over it and try to fall in love again.. it will never b the same anymore no matter how hard u try..

Anonymous said...

Don't worry above love.. worry about our Dota.. love will come when it comes... but dota will lose if we dont train...So train hard and buck up boy...


Regards,

Your Brother...

alvinrox said...

wendy : we depend too much on the comfort zone that we tend to lose track once we're out. I say it's never late to fall in love over and over again. The pain sometimes can be unbearable, but we still move on,hoping for something better till we wrinkle up...the thing call love never fail to amaze me =)
wei busy girl, when free wanna yumcha? u're like a disconnected internet , dunno go where d.

jerry: i love you too. dont worry.

gk: i agree that it will never be the same. it's like selling ur old car. but u always have the option to get a better car rite? all we need is a lil bit of opening up. u'll get it there. Got buy anything for me in Japan or not?!!

anonymous: hi bro from a different mother. i don't need training for something im good at.Yea, please come home for dinner, the dishes are getting cold.

love,
your brother from another mother

Anonymous said...

Dear alvin,

Even we are from different mother we are still brother.. you are not good yet in ur dota skills.. u need to join us more when we call u for dota.. not joining blackie and CO =) playing tower wars or some stupid hero game... that makes ur skill bad... about love leave god to do his job..AMEN.. =)

Anonymous said...

hello alvin's brother,

what are you trying to say?
leave love to god?
i know god loves us lah...

and alvin,
we just have to continue pray to god of dota which is GodLike. =)

love
your another beloved brother

Anonymous said...

wah so many brothers spreading their love. I love you too man.

rgs,
your other brother from the other parallel universe.

Anonymous said...

Dear all,

Im the closest brother ever he had okie... we bath together last time but now got bulu d hard la shy nia... what another anonymous said is true GOD LIKE..dont need to pray to get ur partner wan la... wait for them to come... sure 1 day sure ada wan... sometimes dont too rush of something will hurt urself... why not just go to asia cafe there is alot of chick there waiting for u.. like crystal maiden or maybe akasha quite pretty also.. Lina also not bad ...if u are gay u can have bristle back

Regards

The brother that bath with you and DOTA together

Anonymous said...

Brother here, brother there.

WA SI LU LAO PEH ARH!

VinTakRox: Don't become emo!

NooBBoon: Go get married please, I promise to play the DOTA Song at your wedding. Hell, I'll even add in the Godlike thing. :P

The rest of you brothers: do something productive like TFK and donate pls.

alvinrox said...

Hi anonymous' who claim to be my brothers,

Can't thank you guys enuf for your concerns. unfortunately, some of you are very much been misguided and influenced by this selfproclaimed 'God' which i think is a big haox. Do not worry as I am your brother and will guide u back to sanity and repel you with positive buffs so u can ward off this negative curse of 'doom'. I will buy you sacred relic to oppose your enemy and release you from being shackled.

Good day my brothers. and where da fook are my sisterS?? -.-

Love,
Your one and only brother
Vin

Anonymous said...

Brothers oh Brothers

Give as you may to love.
Receive as you may to love.
Never compare wat was given and received.

And it looks like your sisters have decided to abandon you!

Brothers RAWKZ ! Sisters Boo!

Cheers.
Bro Shannon.

Anonymous said...

Betrayal is the last thing a person looks for. It hurts so badly.
I hope you'll get what you need on Friday.

Anonymous said...

wah this is one hot topic man.. :)
well u love "love" when ur in love and u hate "love" when ur out of love. weirdd

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