Through Glass

OUght to be in your playlist.

Out of reach

That fine fine porcelain,
Displaying gracefully in an antic shop,
The little note written could not be seen from afar,
"For Sale" it says, that answered my curiosity.

The bell made a clear sound of my presence
A young lady stood up behind the counter
Baring a rather familiar face
One I've seen many times, only uncertain where.

I enquire about the priceless piece,
The only one that outshine the others.
The one and only that caught my attention.
I silently told myself that It has to be mine.

A pinch feeling of dissapointment fill the air,
I was told that it belongs to someone,
Someone who already knew the value,
Oh! what a great bargain he's 'bout to get.

Lucky him.

I walked away in despair,
Contemplating on what I've missed out,
I'll just have to look out for another one,
It won't be easy, It never was in the first place.


If only she knew...


how important that porcelain meant to me...

Strange Condition

Running away,
nowhere to go.
Cold shivers running down my spine
only a worn out coat to keep me warm,

I long for
A cup of hot cocoa, and an Amos's cookie
Particularly chocolate chip and pecan , my favourite!
such simple pleasures doesn't come easy these days.

The girl in black
color of my mood
her smile so natural
living me insane

waiting for the last bus
with a quarter on my hand
I wonder how far it will take me
before I can see you once more

things i love
are often shortlived
either fickled mind
or stupidity

whatever it is , wherever I am,
I'm just me

A stranger to all.

Life after Hope

Usually, a good movie is often judge by the ending.
Or how a reader tells if it's a good book by reading the last chapter.

Closure.

To end things in a good note. To move on. The closure in life are often left unnoticed living a huge scar behind , waiting for time to heal the wound and hoping for a miracle that one day go back to where it all started out, the past.

I was diliberately blinded by the fact that it wasn't over, that somehow one day in the tiniest percentage of humanity that I still stand a chance.I guess that's why I still held on to it. I should have seen it coming a long long time ago. Should have clarify my credential and made everything crystal clear and full stop. No turning back.

Not anymore.
I've gathered enough courage to ask what actually happened. I needed to know. And most importantly, I needed to move on. She gave a very logical explanation that we were still young and naive back then and she didn't actually knew what love is until after college. I just told her that some people don't even know what love is right till today; and I think it's so very true.

I felt relieved , partly sad, but mostly relieved that the weight I had in my heart is lifted upon years of holding back my thoughts about the x. I never felt such boost of confidence before in my life. You know how surfacing from water feels? It's great, dealing with your fear , knowing the truth and although it hurts sometime, it's not as bad as keeping it to yourself.

I ask myself , "what's next?"

Swim my boy, just go with the flow.

Spot lights please?

You know how girls go crazy over lengchai male artists.
Oh how they just idolize and adore the good looking ones as if they've seen a God walking on the street.

Even my mom, of all people join the millions who would go googoogaga over Rain the Korean phenomenon.
Not the fanatic type though, luckily.

I still scratch my head sometimes.

So, I was browsing through the internet today,
and I found this website.

It gives hope to ugly people like me.

check out the result.





Super bangga gila babi cannot sleep !!! 70% lookalike wei, dun pray pray.

It just made my day. =)

Now, to tell her that her son resembles her idol,
hmph..... how do I even know where to start.

"Ah ma! Ngo Tak Jor La!!!"?



ps: sorry had to remove the Kelly lookalike. hehe anyhow, i think she should be proud. 96% sial!
wah lau eh

Bubble Talk

Communication.
It's the first thing we really learn in life.
Funny thing is, once we grow up, learn our words and really start talking the harder it becomes to know what to say.

Or how to ask for what we really need.
I don't deny having a hard time expressing myself, and the more i keep it to myself, the more its eating up inside of me.

Why is it sometimes it's hard to even say a simple hello.
What more trying to convey in text messages.
Bold, courage is something I don't have and in return, I'm an expert in hiding my own feelings.

At the end of the day, there are some things you just can't help but talk about.
Some things we just don't want to hear, and some things we say because we can't be silent any longer.

Some things are more than what you say, they're what you do.

Some things you say because there's no other choice.
Some things you keep to yourself.

And not too often, but every now and then, some things simply speak for themselves.

Wouldn't it be nice if conversations are made out of comic strips?
Delete , refer back or just edit what we've just said for a better understanding.

Communication, what a funny thing to do.

Unproductive

You cannot imagine how I spent my day today.
It has to be the most UNPRODUCTIVE DAY ever recorded in the working industry.

SEriously.

I just stood in the office with a bunch of open-minded colleagues and start talking about sex. =.=

Sex , sex and more sex.

Not interesting enough? someone had to give me a Condom survey to do. How bout that!

I even managed to bore a few victims with a long spam message of "Boooooooorrrrrriiingggggggg!"

Some went offline straightaway, Some asked me to STFU, and some just didint' even bothered to layan me. So mean the people i mix with . Hehe

I couldn't log in to blogger, and if I did, i would have written the longest post EVER.

As I was talking today, somehow it hit me , that I badly needed a hobby. So I've decided to either do cooking or cycling or prolly both if I have the time.

If you have any contacts regarding a cooking class near Klang Valley, please oh please be a saint and recommend to me because I think the only thing that will piss my mom off is to cook better than her =)

Resolutions

A week old from 2007, I have yet to state my resolutions for the year. =)

Let's see how last year's reso went.

- Grow some meat. Zh'ng my body.
Pass - havent had time to Zhn'g, definitely put on weight. Not that fat la, got mini bonggol only

- Eat more food, without having any complains from my friends.(Eat abit more kena scolding, niabeh)
Fail - still get frequent complains and always in the limelight when i complain hungry. Leave me alone =.=

- Put 30% of my salary into savings and buy properties/car. (I think this 1 cannot lar, see money in bank sure spend ..aiyoh)
Fail - Not enough money for myself, but i do have some savings now...Yay!

- Travel. Definitely want to see the open world. First stop, Australia!
Fail - Furthest I went was Redang =.= Ninabeh. This year i will get out from the country.

- Get a digital camera.
Pass - Got an Ixus 60 =)

- Will not get Wasted again. Will not get wasted again. Will not get wasted again.
Pass - Only wasted once this year. Very good achievement.

- Alcohol is not your friend. Remember that.
Pass - No more drinking for me. Only casual drinks on friend's birthday.

- Dota is only a temporary hobbie. Not a full time activity. REMEMBER that.
Pass - Been months since my last dota game. No more addicted to it

- Learn a new language. Not hamsap language ok.
Fail - Err, totally forgotten about this .

- Get PS3 by Christmas.
Fail - Just launch in Asia and freaking expensive.

- Try to find a new job closer to home. Less Jam, Less Stress, more money.
Pass - Got a new job. Less Jam
Fail - More stress, losing hair and not a very good pay. Two words ; bangla work

- Keep in touch with long lost friends.
Pass - Kept in touch with some Australian friends and been in touch with kindergarden friends. Still alot more to do.

- Get a new gf. ><
Fail - Miserably. hahah Like always

This year's Resolution

1. Visit at least 2 continents or 3 countries
2. Appear in newspaper for all the right reasons.
3. Get a new job that I enjoy doing.
4. Quit smoking and drinking entirely.
5. Be health concious and eat healthier food.
6. Pick up a new hobby
7. Meet a foreign friend.
8. Move out
9. Be less emo-er =)
10. Settle down

I think it's pretty much achievable. Just need to start getting work done. Hope you guys have a great year ahead !

Tandas Awam Revealed.

Have you check out the new public toilet kiosk in KL?


If you happen to be in Bukit Bintang or Lot 10 , do check it out for the sake of checking it out.


Don't worry it's always vacant. AND since people start complaining, they have reduced the price from RM1.20 to RM 0.20 =)


Even when it's cheap, utilizing the facility is another issue. Imagine entering an elevator-like toilet in the middle of the street.


Feeling hot outside? Don't worry, pay 20 cents , get a personalize air-cond!



Everything is motion sensored; the toilet seat, the basin, the soap dispenser, the hand dryer and even the lightings.
Oh and before you plan to take your own sweet time, wanking or thinking about doing quickie with ur honeybunny, DON'T ,because there is a 15 minutes time limit.

God knows what happen after the 15 minutes is up.

It's pretty neat if you ask me. Worth a try if you have really nothing better to do like me. BUT beware, because there is a big FLAW with this lovely toilet of ours. =)



Got nice mirror to cam whore sommore. Wah seh !




I wasn't wearing any pants when I took this picture.