Tuesday, September 28, 2004

Back when i was small, mooncake festival is 1 of the occasion that i looked forward to every year.. The reason is simple, I can play with FIRE! Normally, at the end of the day, i set my tanglung on fire just for the kick of it...i could still remember the use of WD40, or spray can, yup folks,To MAKE FLAMING Fire when u sprayed on a lit candle.!!
Ah, those days where i celebrate near the padang beside my house and the mosquitoes bite i sustain from the night out. I used to be a notti boy.Who wasnt?It was part of growing part anyway and i'm just glad that i had a fantastic childhood life...though, i wished it was abit different~~
Believe it or not, i left this page for almost 24 hours without even writing a single word.. i wasn't thinking straigth...not that i don't have anything to jot down...maybe i'm just too lazy...

What do people think about when they are alone?
As for me, i see flashes of memories about the only think that brought happiness to my life...even though it was only a short period of time, the feelings are still so strong that i could even feel it right up till now...right at this very moment...where would i be without her? it's very vain and blurry at the moment..the regret of letting it go brings much pain and sadness that i couldnt write a new chapter of my life...the only thing that stays clear in my mind is her smile...such pleasant memories...gosh, when can i find a new beginning for my god forsaken life..sheesh...

probably i'll find it one day...but not now, im still stuck in a moment i can't leave behind....


see ya !

Wednesday, September 22, 2004

Nothing Seems Right.

I'm melting! The sunbeam through the window glares my vision. Ah i slept early yesterday night, around 10.45pm and guess what, i woke up for breakfast this morning. So, feeling hungry and joyful, i decided to jog to the nearest nasi lemak stall in ss14. Nothing could be worst than being chased by a dog! =( A DOG! bwahaha..At first it was just me looking into his eyes...Then, he started barking...so, i walk pass him (he's still staring at me) and out of a sudden he start coming towards me...apa lagi, i run lar! after running past a few houses, he stopped...luckily it was some paria dog, not a rottweiler. GRrrr i didnt expect something like this would happen...not in the morning and not when i want to have my peaceful breakfast.!!

I presume that today's gonna be a hectic day..I have assignments due this friday and i havent type anything yet..fortunately, i have everything written down on a piece of paper...so its only putting all down into word format. Hopefully by tonight, everything should be done.

Right now, i'm thinking about the fastest way to earn cash at the shortest period of time. I'll prolly save my allowance and stop going to cc for these whole week or 2..
i wan to go langkawi!!! 3 more weeks left till my exams. I haven't start studying yet. I guess i have to be an overnight student again and that explains why i never get good results.

Dang gtg now, lunch time..
Goodday.

Sunday, September 19, 2004

Last week..

Nothing beats the sound of rain drops. Sunday morning rain, just gotta love it. Been up for almost 2 hours now and my stomach is making grumbling noise. IM HUNGRY~ no food around.
So, ill try recap on what happened the previous week. Nothing much that i could think of at the moment, the most significant thing that i could think of is watching "Man On Fire" starring denzel washington. Talk about good movie, this is 1 OF THE BEST i've seen. Everything was good in my opinion. The cameras, the plot,the twist and the actors, simply fantastic. Hail genius Denzel. This guy really deserve the Oscar. Makes me wana see all his previous shows.
It has been a slow week for me. Oh wait, it has always been this slow anyway. Went midvalley on friday, havent been there for like 6 months or so. Boy so much changes since.

Budget 2004 came out and they just have to screw with the only entertainment i have. EVery single year WITHOUT FAIL, prices for liquor just have to go up! Stupid government! You call this budget?You actually think that people would cut down on these "sinful entertainment" Well, guess what, SCREW YOU. And congrats because you just made Malaysia a paradise for crimes. More robbery will take place, people will be so desperate for a stick of ciggy that they would do anything just to get it. Lucikily for me, i dont have to invest on that. But why my favvy drink? Grrrr..I guess it's time to cut down on clubbing and say hello to library. Yeah Right.

I badly need a break right now. Hang on, just 1 more month to go and you are as free as a bloody bird. I think i'll be heading off to Langkawi with bunch of friends at the end of the year, hopefully.
Running short of cash at the moment. I need a part time job. Yup that's what i'll do. Work first then enjoy. That's the plan. But work where? Haih, another troublesome decision.

Anyway, tired eyes already. Here's a joke for everyone.

A father and his son go into the grocery store when they happen upon the condom aisle.

The son asks his father why there are so many different boxes of condoms.

The father replies, ''Well, you see that 3-pack? That's for when you're in high school. You have 2 for Friday night and 1 for Saturday night.''

The son then asks his father, ''What's the 6-pack for?''

The father replies, ''Well, that's for when you're in college. You have 2 for Friday night, 2 for Saturday night, and 2 for Sunday morning.''

Then the son asks his father what the 12-pack is for.

The father replies, ''Well, that's for when you're married. You have one for January, one for February, one for March, one for.....''


Goodday. =p



Tuesday, September 14, 2004

I cant sleep!

Day 2 of sleepless night. My sleeping time table is really messed up. It's 12pm now in the afternoon and all i do is browse the net. Help me!!! I'm normally energetic when it comes to nightfall. Like today, i came home at 5am! Yea luckily i dont have my parents waiting for me at the doorstep. What is happening to me. I can't seem to find my sleeping rhythm anymore!!!
Oh well, it's not a bad thing after all. At least now i can do my work in the morning.

Check this out:
The next time you're having a bad day,imagine this:
You're a Siamese Twin.
Your brother,attached at your shoulder, is gay.
You're not.
He has a date coming over tonight.
You only have one ass.


ROFL...Jokes work wonders i tell you. Thought i can watched 'dodgeball' after i downloaded it today.But the stupid file had bad sectors, so the movie keep jerking every 2 minutes and replay back from the beginning. AHHHH screw it, i'm gonna watch it in cinema.

Okay another good joke before i go and find some food.

Bad Car Day
A police officer pulled over a driver and informed him that because he was wearing his seat belt, he had just won $5,000 in a safety competition.

"What are you going to do with the prize money?" the officer asked.

The man responded, "I guess I'll go to driving school and get my license."

At that moment, his wife, who was seated next to him, chimed in, "Officer, don't listen to him. He's a smart aleck when he's drunk.

" This woke up the guy in the back seat, who, when he saw the cop, blurted out,

"I knew we wouldn't get far in this stolen car."

At that moment, there was a knock from the trunk and a voice asked, "Are we over the border yet?"

Enjoy =P
Good day.

Monday, September 13, 2004

White Flag.

Yohooo,Sunday! Yet another boring weekend. This afternoon, i stumble upon an interview on channel[v] about dido and she was mentioning about her song "White flag". Boy was she cute or what! She's always sexy and elegant in one way. Back to the song, she actually said something about loving someone but without telling her/him about it. I was in the mood, so i searched for her lyrics to know the meaning in it.

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you
I'll tell you that
But if I didn't say it
Well, I'd still have felt it
Where's the sense in that?.

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess
And destruction to come back again
And I caused but nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "It's over"
Then I'm sure that that makes sense

Ah, been playing this song over and over again 'till i can memorize it already. ahha anyway got to get some rest. And yea, new " Police Story" will be coming out tomorrow, hopefully can g e t tickets to the show. *crosses finger*

nites.

Saturday, September 11, 2004

Ponder Wonder ~

Another breezy saturday morning with no watsoever plans ahead of me.I've been focusing alot lately, and no its not about my studies BUT what lies ahead of it...In the next couple of months, i'm finally free from the "student life". It's been a wonderful 15 years of studying experience, and now its time to grow up! and live like an adult. No more last minute studying, and let exams be bygone.Closed.The life of a student has finally reached its conclusion.

Somehow, i'm not happy about it.I just dont know why.Maybe im scared of what will gonna happen next.Not to mention the constant nagging to get a job as quickly as possible from my parents as soon as i completed my degree. That is just a side effect, the real scenario is "Where will i be heading next?" . Thinking of it just blow my mind away. I'm facing a dillema as the days passes and there isn't anyone around to help me. It's like a path without a light. And seriously, i dont think that i'm going into the field that im majoring in college.I just don't have the interest anymore. Telling this to my parents will just shatter their dreams, and i'm deeply sorry for it.So, telling my parents that i'm stuck at the moment is a no-no.

Where can i seek motivation? I'm desperately seeking for something that will make an impact on me. I need somekind of goals that would change my life in one way and doesnt dissapoint my love ones on the other hand.A plan that will move me from this boring and 'doing the same old thing everyday' life. I envy those people who planned so nicely for their future. They know what they want and they are trying so hard to achieve it. For me, there's nothing planned yet, and it feels so bloody miserable.

Everytime i yumcha, my friends will talk about it.Talking about their future...and i think, at 22, i'm yet to achieve anything!!! Soon enough, ill be in my mid-20s, getting my own car, own apartment, married with children and yadabayadaba, but those are just mere illusion of my life. Nothing is concrete yet. I can't predict the future, and hopefully as time goes by, i'll have a clearer picture of what i need to do. Right now, i think i need to stay focus! Finding the right path is crucial and I'm hoping that my friends and family will be right beside me whenever i need to make a decision. At the mean time, i just hope to be happy. And so do the people around me.

peace.

~~~~~~{@
Tribute To Those Who Perished In Jakarta


Thursday, September 09, 2004

Memories~

On the way back from college today,something reminded me of my good old primary days.If it wasnt for the long traffic light in Summit turning, i wouldnt have a glimpse of a motorcycle vender with junkfoods behind the back of him =P..Ahh what memories!
Those days my mom would give me a dollar per day and i would save that money just to buy junk food or slurpee in 7-11 after school. School bells and lining-up before entering class rooms was a part of my life back then..I was always looking forward to PJs (pendidikan jasmani) on wednesday and fridays where football was my game and enjoy playing it especially with classmates! Didnt like lessons back then =/ cos my teachers are either emo freak or teacher from hell >.<.. kena rotan before, massage teacher's back, denda kutip sampah, stand in front of classroom with duster on my head was some of the thing i was penalised for! =*( The worst i think was the time when my mom made luncheon meat sandwich for me and the pengawas actually confiscate my lunch box!! Grrrrrr My Babi Sandwich and my tupperware!!! =*(
There goes into my collection of "Forget To Bring Back Tupperware and Rotan from my mom"
Hheh yup, i was such a forgetful person back then..Ahh i wish to be young again ...forever young and never had to worries about anything except for test =.="
Nothing much happened today...oh yeah met someone in cafeteria today and guess what, didnt say hi or anything like that...I dont even dare to look into her eyes ...its not like shes gonna eat me or anything like that right? but yet i feel so awkward that i couldnt stare at her for more than 1 seconds..always wanted to say hi and ask how was she and blabla, but couldnt do so everytime..keep saying to myself "be brave be brave!" sigh~~ failed pathetically and miserably ..didnt even utter a single word, not even a hi!

memories~ just plain o memories



Wednesday, September 08, 2004

What is happening to the world?

If u ever ask me about what i think about the recent russian incident, i would say that those who did it doesnt deserve to be acknowledge as human being. How could someone be so cruel ? Where is the sanity of these people? Are they aware that even animals fare better than them? These people are ought to be shot dead!or bury alive! and burn in hell!! you are talking about killing children and innocent victims...
I wished i could have done something =/ besides reading the newspaper and watch for live coverage on the updates..yesterday, centerfold in malay mail, they posted dead children bodies of the russian bombing...what a HORRIFIC sight...limbs missing, blood scattered all over the place ...its simply too much..
I feel pity for those family who lost their child and family members in the bombing and i'm so glad that we dont have it here in our country. I don;t know whether to be grateful or not but it feels like we all are being part of this cruel world, as 1 whole family. You might say that i dont even know anyone of them but mind you, dont you even have any compassion on what has been done? I do.
Let's not forget that life goes on. I,alone cannot make any changes and staying in somber mood will not make any differences. By right, i'm even not supposed to think about it anymore. All that has happened just make me even wonder more whether God exist or not. Prove me wrong!
I am a thinker and i dont believe in what i dont see or felt.
Could only just pray..Pray for those who have died. May they find who they believe in. May they rest in peace and not forgotten. May all of you be well and happy always! always!

~~~~~~{@
Tribute To Those Who Perished In Beshran

Sunday, September 05, 2004

Atmosphere! Drunk! Blog? WTF!!!

I'm actually recovering from drunk mode while writing this..dont even bother to take this seriously =P..anyway just to satisfy my daily fetish of writing blogs, here i am!
Yesterday, i was in atmosphere partying like a wild animal and drowning myself in sorrows...haha neh was just joking.. more like spending my money just to get high =) it was such an unbelievable feeling.. getting high on alcohol is like floating on mid-air.. i know i know! its hazardous to health right? so what? we aint gonna live till 100 years old...just do whatever you feel like doing ! it make's you feel so damn good ...
took several photos in atmos, (will publish it later), drink free tequilas and constantly refilling drinks to make your friends drunk is just too much to laugh about =). I had a splendid time with 'the gang' ..NO! its more like 'the drunkards!'. hehe so funny to see when your friends are drunk...even amusing when u sabo your friends drink =P hahaha poor kevin ! piss drunk!..(dont blame us, it was his birthday anyway *winkwink*)
Chill awhile at the entrance of atmos, i was the Driver!!, so incase of road block i took 2 Extra Mint chewing gums, 1 wrigleys chewing gum, 3 clorets !! OMFG,talk about precautions! sheesh~
my mouth was so minty that ivan just had to ask me to go home and wank! i asked him why must wank? "Do only lar , you consume so much mint, later you mandul how? " @@" WTF??
didnt know too much mint could make u impotence =P...careful man! your dragon need to be 'functional' at all times!!! hahaha
well, reach home at around 5am...freaking tired but not sleepy =.=" just had to sit down on my com chair and browse the net...haih me = freak =P...anyway, so happy to find new pic of her...nyeknyek! now can sleep better...hahah ..good morning! time to sleep..
ciows.

Friday, September 03, 2004

Friends...

It's 6.51am and the sky is greyish pale...i've been surfing the net since i came from DOTA friendly with 1 of my friend's classmates...I should be dreaming right now but instead im here expressing what i've been through after an incident earlier today...

"No man is an island" i used to hear...Nobody in this world would have gone through his/her life without a single friend..whether its guy or girl, a friend has no limitations...a friend shares your happiness and your sorrows...a friend gives you advice about life, and sometimes even relationships...a true friend shows compassion and tolerate your worst behaviour and still be patience about it...To me,friends plays a very big role in shaping my life... i once heard my dad said something like "you can have the whole world as your friend, but stay away from those who take advantage of you"
so far, so good for me...havent been mixing with the bad crowds...how do u even judge the bad crowds anyway? i mean, after all, whether u mix with a bunch of people, they are still your friends right? it's this group of people whom you'll spend your life with day in day out...
In the end it's all base on your perceptions..whether u can perceive what is good for you and what is bad for you, i think you are on the right track...i spent too much time with my friends that i stray away from my family =/ ...i think that's abit natural but not really healthy..
Am i wrong if i dont fulfill something that my friend wants? Compromise! thats the word i've been thinking for the past 10 mins or so!!!! I think friendship is bond between the word "Compromise".. A good friendship is build through understanding of both parties...sometimes, you get what you want and sometimes you DONT!
I'm really dissapointed because a friend of mine thinks that i chose something that i liked rather than our friendship...you know, i have rights to choose and what you asked for was really too much..
I hope i didnt offended anyone through my post, and my actions....and if i did, im really sorry =X.
its 7.43am now...not a really long post but seems like im taking forever to complete it >.<
anyway, i wish today will be a better day and what happened yesterday remain as history...cheers tek..you rox! ajajaja
ciow


ps:ahahha oak you suck! welcome to blog world =P saw ur first blog..it was cool! told you it was fun heh

Thursday, September 02, 2004

Kissing Lessons


Part 1
Some interesting article i took from forum. =P for all those newbies (including me) learn!! ill ask my friend to translate it for me tomorrow ok..hehe sit back and relax

Part 2

French Kiss!

Before you do this,dont eat any petais or durians