2007; the year that was..

In less than 24 hours, we usher in a new year.
2007 has been a heck of a year to reminscence. Many things happened and memories are made out of this. Sweet, sad, dissapointment, renewal, new hope, fresh start, whatever, you name it you've got it all in the span of 12 months.

The multiple breaks helped alot in burying the skeletons and let's just leave the bones where it's supposed to be. The stars and planet are just not alligned every day and the least we can do is make the very best out of it.

Just when we thought that all is lost, a new shade of light somehow manage to find its way to give new hope. What's dark became bright and what's impossible somehow became possible. In that sheer moment, I feel alive. I guess that's life and one way for God to tell us its okay and everything will be alright. It feels better thinking that way doesn't it?

Looking back at how the year went, '07 sure pass by pretty damn fast.

Believed in God...again
First time meeting new cousin
Visited Bali/Singapore and hopefully will be another visit anytime soon
Heartbroken and moved on
Got a new job, lets see how it goes
Made mistakes, alot of them and shouldn't have done it
Caused multiple scars that will haunt me forever
Friends got married/engaged
Made new friends, lost old friend
Accidents, let people bang, bang people doesnt really matter does it. Luckily no major ones.
Grateful to those who stood by even for the storm.
Touched by many people whom I would never have thought about it before
and many many other events regardless of whether its big or small, it all happened.

Good things will come eventually when we're not looking, when we least expect it to be. We all have dramas in our live, high or low, I'm just grateful that after all the turbulence months, I'm still sane enough to be writing this post at 1.26am on new year's eve.

Let's hope that '08 will be a better year for all of us, both health and wealth,
and thank you for all the footprints that are left in my heart, all the best and God bless.

Vanilla Coke with Dark Circles

1.39 a.m
I can't sleep !!!!!@#$$#%$^$&

HELP

Been weeks since I had a good one. I do not want to succumb to sleeping pills.

Maybe its the supper. But but its food, its a sin to deny 'em.

When will I see you again?

Only in my dream you exist. Please come back soon.

The Soft Dive of Oblivion

Just when I'm all ready to go home for a nice hot shower, the nature has its way of playing a fool out of me.
Yup, raining cats and dogs outside and my stomach is playing the usual orchestra at this time of the hour.

Fail.

I should have known earlier. Wasn't a good sign to begin with ; gloomy clouds and the smell of rain from a distance. I'm alone now. In the office at least, everyone has gone home. Not a usual sight. Haha

Two things that are lingering in my mind right now.
What awaits me for dinner and the magazine on the shelves!
You had your way of getting back at me haven't you. Sigh
Such weakness I have in me. And I thought it was going ok, why do you have to reappear again out of nowhere. Well at least it got me going for the day. I'm proud of what you've done. Really.
With a faint smile I wonder, how's it going to be?

Two more days and counting. A break, finally.
Is there anything I'm going to miss?
I wonder.

Maybe the ferris wheel and the road up hill.

At least I've got my bus ticket home. Such a daddy's boy. What would I do without you around. ;)

The longest week

It has been raining for the past whole week now.
10 days gone, less than a week to go and my heart is racing.
I need to get out of here.

Really.

Eventhough it's a short escapade, I still need be there to fill my thoughts with junk or perhaps unseen beauty? Who knows what awaits behind this few hours, who would know best but only you. One who hops and got me thinking whole night. Why did you came when it's cloudy?

Crap.

Life is not a box of chocolate. It's a load of cow dunk. Seriously. Life sucks when we think too much. Way way way too much till it become a disease. An uncurable plague of mind eating thought. Eats you up, inside out leave you alone and then attacks you from different angle.
Leave you defenseless, like a level 3 hero up against a level 25 hero.

Renewal.

Two weeks till O eight. It's been a tiring year. Emotionally and physically. I'm aging rapidly inside. The outer part is just a disguise.
Everything's changing. Those days where we stand still and wait for the wind to pick us up are long gone. Nothing's real now, everything's made believe and thats where everything goes wrong. When we stop believing.
I hope it's not a cycle, this life is made for more.

Well christmas is coming, and please let it be a white one. Nothing fancy, just a quiet holiday in a foreign land. A good time to start believing again. Come what may =)

Cheerios and Merry X-mas.

Between the Devil and the Deep Blue Sea

Christmas is on the way!!! teeeeheeeeee
20 to go. Hold on, hang tight. Spin the wheel and squeal.
Loving the spirit, and the decos and all the xmas parties on the cards.

Dilemma. Easier to just flip the coin.

I want to go down south for Christmas but but all the party is holding me back.
I don't know what my priorities are right now.
The hare or the flying mare
Both to miss but only one to choose. This is confusion dammit. Hate it to bits.
Wish to split in two, without doubts.

She said it cold, just like winter break and it doesn't end there.
It ended gradually into the silent night on the very next day.
Slow and calm, dying as the wind goes by.
It's crisp clear now, I even had it in my dream. Hah

Man, I ain't changed, but I know I ain't the same
But somewhere here in between the city walls of dyin' dreams
I think her death it must be killin' me

And I seen the sun coming up at the funeral dawn
Saying "hey come on try a little"
Nothing is forever, there's gotta be something better than in the middle.

Getting out from this rain of mine.

When moving on is the right and the hardest thing

An answer is still an answer
It's off the chest, off the heart
A huge sigh of relieve but an aching one too
At least I'll get back my sleep
Soon enough...
Hello dream!