Farewell McAfee

It's never easy leaving memories behind. Especially something attached to you for some period of time and I really have a heavy heart leaving all of them behind me.

I just submitted my farewell letter and it sure hurts being in my shoe right now. I dare to say that I can never find colleagues better than what I already had before and to know them at some point in my life is something I would treasure it for the rest of my life.

Thank you all, for being such a great listener , helping me out in covering my ass, sharing laughters in 3rd floor , walking ridiculous distance just to have chinese food, login early for me when I'm due to arrive late, taught me about life and how to overcome the pressure, made me laugh, made me realised that working is not about getting your job done, but having fun while you are doing it and pointing out my mistakes just to make me a better person.

Arigato.

My sleeping habit is going from bad to worse and I don't have a clue on what is going wrong.
I don't want to rely on pills or substance to make me sleep =(

I have this sinking feeling deep within and I can't exactly pinpoint what is the main reason to this. I need to clear my head before my new job kick off. Somehow, I think it's girl related and I'm too afraid to face it.

Being me right now just sucks. Haih

Hold On Hope

Surprisingly, I actually enjoyed my Monday morning and to begin a day with a smile really lightens me up. Thanks for terrorising my meebo so early and keeping me awake, Meanie =)

I actually wanted to lay low on weekends , not drinking or partying but just doing some catching up with friends.Somehow it only worked on Friday and by the time Saturday kicks in, my hormones automatically ran wild and the urge of consuming alcohol made me change my mind.
I had an eye opener over the weekend and I can come to conclude that,

I don't like my friends when they are drunk =( . Boohoo

This doesn't mean that I dislike them, just that I don't like the sight of them when they are not themselves , basically pissed drunk. I'm stating in general not specifically so don't bombard me with hate remarks. Honestly speaking, I hate being wasted myself and having people to take care of me. I already vowed not to drink as much as I should , don't wanna exceed my limit and get carried away just to forget about the real world. I'll give a headstart and tell you guys if i really need to.

I may not be the wisest guy on planet, or the person who looked like he has any relationship experience, but one thing that I can assure you , whenever you need someone to talk to, to hear your problems or whine about how bad thing is, I will lend my ears to you. If you need a shoulder to cry on or a semi-chubby guy to hug, I'll willingly offer myself.

Relationships issue are always the main culprit when it comes to bringing someone down to his knees. What a person will do for love, it's beyond imaginable. The worst part of all these is being left hanging by a moment and not knowing what will turn out next. Being stuck in between choices of moving forward or letting go is never easy, especially from the one that you don't want to get hurt from.

Whether you like it or not, somethings just doesn't go your way and the only comfort that you can give yourself is to accept the way things are.

Torn between lovers or torn between those who can't forget about their past relationships are inevitable one of the most cruel feeling a person could get. Somehow you looked like the third party, the float or the rebounder and somehow, you ain't any one of them. You are just putting the blame on yourself because you can't seem to make things better. Try not to feel shitty bout the whole thing, and pray hard that your only buddy, TIME is there to ease what you are going through. To prolong or shorten the whole process, that my friend, depends on you.

It takes time to heal , it takes time to change, it takes time to accept. Show some sincerity , I bet one day she'll get the message. I hope =X

Believe in yourself. Don't walk away so easily , I'm sure that's the right thing to do.

;)

dedicate especially to my buddies.

cheers

Hugs and kisses

o o x x o o x x O o x


Hug hug kiss kiss hug hug kis kis Big hug small hug small kiss

Jack Black rox my sox ! Naaachoooooooooooooooo

Holiday no more

It's been a week huh.

Life seems to be passing by real quickly and somehow stays monogamous for me. My holiday ended in a brief note of not doing anything productive.Nevertheless, i enjoyed the fact that i met with couple of new friends along the line and getting to know more about someone better which i should have done a long long time ago.

My feelings for the work that i'm doing right now has reduced to zero. Maybe the holiday mood still kicks in, but I'm going real slow it's killing my brain cells. I don't squeeze my brain juice anymore and laze around it's sick to even know they are actually paying for what i do.

Please don't let my boss see this >.<

Anyhoo, everything has been great so far. I'm hoping the next company that I'll be in will benefit from my wisdom and charming personality. Yea right ! I know you guys are laughing out there ! Kaninia -.-

Seriously, things has been going real smooth sometimes it scares me. The only concern that I have right now is my health and universal problem, moolah/money, the root of all evil. (actually i think woman is the root to all evil =.= j/k )

I've been smoking like a chimney lately and I'm really concern about what I'll grow up to be when I turn 30 or maybe 40. My grandpa lived till 80+ with the consumption of nicotine every single day and I just don't feel like taking the same risk as him. Who knows right where I'll end up the very next second. See how la, I'll stop when the time is right. Please give some encouragement and not laugh about it =( it 's very de-motivating ya know .

Should I exercise more too? Just yesterday, I went shirtless and my lil cousin tap on my tummy and called me a fatty. So innocent yet so true. My tummy size has not slim down since the last time looked into the mirror. I don't want to be categorized under the obese category anywhere in the near future so Mom if you are reading this, please stop cooking nice food for me to eat ok ! Hehehe
( i know those of you who don't receive any home cook food very often at home are prolly having a grudge on me and feel like kicking my sorry ass rite? please don't , you are always welcome to my house and steal my food . =P )

The last thing i keep reminding myself is to stop consuming so much of alcohol during the weekends. August has been a killa month for me and my wallet. Let's see, I've been in clubs every single weekend and on weekdays 7-eleven became one of my best buddies. God knows how much my credit card bill will end up when the statement arrives early next month. The debts has been pilling up it doesn't depreciate. Yup, credit card is another thing that doesn't depreciate, so live with it ! =)

I----Needddd ---- Tooooo Stoppppp UUuussinnggg mMMmMmmyyyy Cccreeddiittt CccccArrrrRddd

I guess most of you knew that I was actually involved in a police raid last week in Passion rite? It was such a painful new experience. Imagine you can't go to toilet to pee or shit when you really have to. Thank god my bladder was good enough to let me go through 3 long hours of misery. Phhewww . I was in there most of the time when they inspected every single one, and there was this joker who said something like "Who da fark take drugs in this kindda place?"

Apparently, to my surprise there was more female who got caught then male. Those girls are really notti notti spank spank . I heard that there was this girl who had positive results kept on insisting that she didnt take it. Ajoh, be a woman ...do da right thing!!! Follow like those smart guys who were caught la, sit at the corner like a small kid and smile innocently.

So limember, when you want to go partay with your girlprens and boyboy, don't take dwugs ok.

Ok I'm crapping already. SEe ya'll in the future.

pics here

The real football icons !

My glory days.. three of us were the only chinese guys among the football team. Proud neh!


Champions FC. See the guy in the middle, next to the blue Nike cap? Superstar man! Patah tangan also still can play football. =)

Anyone willing to scan pics for me?

Changing paths

And so my holiday has started...
Great, now I have more time for myself and nothing to prove.

I wanted to embark into some great adventure of travelling alone into some foreign country, get lost in translation and in the process met up with some hot chick who then invites me to her house for a bong session.
Such fantasies are so not going to happen when you dun have enough moolah. =(

Money surrounds us all whether you like it or not and at times, it swallows up your wildest imagination and breaks your heart, leaving you with nothing but dissapointment.

A few things which I never thought I would have done, happened. Like for example, I never threw a letter of resignation before and somehow I did. Many asked, whether I regretted doing so, and I can clearly say, NO.

Life's made of many choices , and regretting only makes you feel remorse and shitty. I chose to be happy, so that's why I'm leaving the company.

It wasn't a desperate measure, I just needed a break instead of sitting in the office and doing nothing. I feel useless ok.

Looking at the bright side, I got a job at the same time. Something which I wanted to do at some point of my life. Event line ! !! Couldn't be happier enough, cos my life's gonna change for sure. I get to keep myself busy and stop thinking about stupid stuffs. You know , those kind of things you think about when you are alone. ;)

Need to control my excitement for now, I know I'll feel likewise when things started to get real tough. Wish me luck k. Shon shon lei lei!

Anyone wants Lipton or Excel, just let me know, i make sure you drink until you jelak!

Heading out for lunch now...

pics for weekends here
Casualty for the week , OaK!

Tulan with Backstabbers

It's pathetic how human being can become in a corporate world.

Eventhough it's a dog eat dog world, never can I imagine someone who can come across such old school tactic of backstabbing. Whatever it takes to climb up the hierarchy chart really makes me puke.
As sly as he can be, I ain't fuking care no more. You can have my post or who ever's fuking post you desire. Go be a fuking shoe polisher for all I care and crawl in your own butt-licking world of yours.
For all the shit in the world , you are the dirtiest piece of shit you fuking maggot!
I'm ashamed to even know you what more you being a chinese yourself. Fuking disgrace.

I live my life the way I want too, you on the other hand, are 1 sadistic gutless bastard who prey for people consider you as a friend to make mistakes.

Good job prick.

Spoil only my holiday mood.

Kaninabehchaocibaitiunyamahhamkachan!

Sick

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and that's why i'm wondering why
you had to tell me what's going on in your head
what's wrong
come around to another time when you don't have to run
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I'm dead sick. Don't even know why i bothered coming to work today. Cough is getting worse I hardly can recognise my voice anymore. Couldn't breath properly , just relying on my mouth to breath.

Going back from work. Took Half day today. I need more rest.

Definitely

A blank wish

I can barely sleep nowadays. Somehow part of me is draining away and I can't replenish it by sleeping early. My eyes just won't close , get it? I roll and roll to make myself tired but it doesn't help much.

Eventually, all i get is a big bad blank stare at the ceiling.

My weekend was fantastic, but I ain't talking much about it. Just to cut it short, there are moments where I felt embarassed and some which are rather surprising. At the end of the day, everyone enjoyed the company of each other and I sure enjoyed mine.

Yesterday night , something amazing happened. A group of us saw this shooting star out of nowhere and it was indeed remarkable, a once in a lifetime experience for me. I haven't seen 1 before in my entire 24 years of walking on the planent , so I was kindda thrilled with the whole thing.

It lid the dark sky for a moment and vanished quickly into sparkle of lights.

Somehow, I managed to make 2 wishes. I'm greedy >.<

But is it true that somethings are better just left unsaid?

For the time being , I think I'll keep it to myself 'first' .

I guess I'm introvert after all. ;)

No point spilling the beans if it's not going to happen anytime soon.

If only those words are meant to be heard, and you really mean it, that would have been great. For sure!

Busy as a bee now, Bye

Weekend pics as usual are here

Privacy please

Why do I have to wake up in the weee hours just to drag my sorry ass to work when the weather is so freaking nice to sleep? It was drizzling and apart of me wanted to just lay back and enjoy the cool morning breeze ...

I don't want to risk my reliable rice bowl by not turning up to work too=( .
......but but i want to sleep as well.

Bleh, screw the indecisiveness.

Don't you just hate making decisions?

It's gonna be another wicked weekend once again.. cos it's CLUBBINGGGG time~!!!!!

nothing excites me more than alcohol... muahhaha

yea babeh.. Next week too o1!!!!! I want my freaking doze of Malibuuuu

On a side note, I was reading Malay Mail yesterday and they mention about spreading false news on blog. Spreading rumours about politics can land the blogger in hot soup till the point that they can interrogate the owner.

Wow, cyberlaw taking effect in Malaysia heh ? Why the sudden urgency need of knowing what we post on our private space? Kaniniabu. Don't monitor our hamsap blog lar.
Lucky for me, i couldn't careless about politics and what's going on around the world. Yea , I'm a katak di bawah tempurung..

Give me sports ! and nothing but sports ! maybe add in a lil bit of saucy news about celebrities..
that's all i need to know. haha

Educative am I? =)
I thought so too.

I think I've done enough good deed to deserve my reward. I demand to have my candies placed on my doorsteps by hook or by crook . You know who you are !!!! Muahahaha

OK peeps, enjoy the weekend like there's no tomorrow cos that's what I'll be doing.

ciow de miow

Freaky

Freaky test.




If you can't see the instructions ;

Thinks of any 2 digit numbers EG: 14 , 23 , 67, 69

Add those 2 numbers and substract it with the original number. EG : 14 - 5 = 9

Stare at number 9.

Scary leh?

Japanese Crazy Stunts.

Gotta give Japanese game show producers credit.They are single handedly the most sadistic and hilarious people ever. On this game show contestants have to recite a tongue twister under a certain amount of time or they get slapped in the balls. Brilliant!



SAKITGILABABISENAKKAOKAO. I remembered being hit in the ballz during high school. and mind you, it's not accident. Some jokers from out of nowhere will come grab your balls and hit it hard like you've killed their parents.
It was a trend back then to hit someone's balls hard and see him suffer in agony for momentarily.

Yea and most of the time, you can hear people cursing "Mak KO!" and some fuckers laughing hysterically.

Really.

=)

My family gathering

It was family gathering again during the weekend as my uncle and aunty and their spouses came all the way down from Germany. My first time meeting my 5 year old Hongkie cousin and 3rd time meeting my German cousin.

Ok lar, lazy to write, without further adew a run through introduction of my family =)

We gathered ourselves in Restoran Sam You somewhere near PJ Assunta hospital.

This is my family. Serious or not my face? Actually leh, I acting only, i'm very easy going and like to hee-ha 1

My Sam Yee Mah's family (3rd aunty)

My Sei Yee Mah's family (4th aunty)

This is my uncle and aunty from Germany lah! Leng lui leh my cousins? The small girl is so adorable and guess what, she enjoys playing football!!!

This is my Tai Yee Mah . She's the queen of the whole family and I respect her alot because she can be the coolest aunty one can ever have. My uncle look like the guy from KFC or not? hehe j/k.

Cheeky. She makes all the clown face when taking pictures. Typical notti lil kid. =)

My parents with notti kid. Wait, where am I? Holding the camera lar whatelse. !@#$%^

Me and cousins. I'm the second eldest in the whole family.

This is my gong-gong. If I'm not wrong he is around 80+. Still going strong !! He does most of the household work in my grandma's house. Terra leh?

Cousins.

Amboi, see lar...she damn layan me =) Muahahahah

=)

That's all. She'll be back to Malaysia.....in the next 4 years

or more.

Snow Patrol - Run

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I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder, louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder, louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

Slower, slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

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No mood to do anything, internet is in snail speed , can't update blog, cannot upload photos, nothing to write, no appetite,

Symptoms of holiday?

Yea I badly neeed 1