R.E.M- Everybody Hurts

When the day is long and the night, the night is yours alone,
when you're sure you've had enough of this life, well hang on.
Don't let yourself go, everybody cries and everybody hurts sometimes.

Sometimes everything is wrong. Now it's time to sing along.
When your day is night alone, (hold on, hold on)
if you feel like letting go, (hold on)
when you think you've had too much of this life, well hang on.

Everybody hurts. Take comfort in your friends.
Everybody hurts. Don't throw your hand. Oh, no. Don't throw your hand.

If you feel like you're alone, no, no, no, you are not alone

If you're on your own in this life, the days and nights are long,
when you think you've had too much of this life to hang on.

Well, everybody hurts sometimes,
everybody cries. And everybody hurts sometimes.
And everybody hurts sometimes. So, hold on, hold on.
Hold on, hold on. Hold on, hold on. Hold on, hold on. (repeat & fade)
(Everybody hurts. You are not alone.)

Moving on...

Reality hit me today. My mind went completely blank after listening to what my colleague had commented.

Basically, in a multi-level company there are bound to have politics circling around the office. Noone can run or even hide from it. Everyone is involved whether you like it or not.

I realized the source of all these back-stabbing, rumours spreading are due to competitive personality of one another. The race to the top,to be the creme of the crop are normally influenced by all these negative morals. I will not deny practising it once before,I DON'T ANYMORE and most of the time i just listen to what i have to listen and say nothing about it later on.

I hate politics, evenmore hate the person who started it in the first place.

So, my colleague was pretty much depressed for not getting the post he wanted recently. He decided to look for other options and went through a few interviews asking me to wish him all the best. I couldn't. I wanted him to stay at the company. The bond among some of us are so strong we got so attached to it. He told me about my previous korean supervisor, who is currently in australia and had no friends like us in Malaysia. I felt at guilt when he added that he drinks alone at home nowadays. ALONE!

He used to drink with the bunch of us when he was back here. How times have changed?

He told me to be selfish and ruthless when it comes to working. Nobody in this world is looking after you and feeding you with benefits. Everyone in the fucking company is taking advantage of you. Which indeed a true statement when you look at a different perspective.

I looked at myself and ask, "Where will i be in one month , 6 months or 1 year time from now?" Seriously, I have no fucking clue.

Thank god for the sanity that's left in me. So,I try not to look so far ahead. When there's an opening somewhere else, i'll definitely grab the opportunity. I'm not clinging on to the company just because of the bond. I get pushed off the ground everytime I think about others first.

Friends act as a guidance,and when they start acting like your boss start to back off. Differentiate who are your friends and who is not. Fuck those hypocrites who thinks only for themselves.

Pei see them!!!!!Niamafulat..you disgust me!

Drifting apart...

Ahhh my good ol blog.
Place to voice my thoughts...

I'm feeling very moody now. God knows what's wrong with me. The mood swing is kicking in so often it seems like a male having his period. No, i'm not talking about being hysterical or being a quiet person. Likewise I know I'm an introvert person who seldoms talks about whats messing my mind right now. I rather keep it to myself and tries to sort it out one way or another.

In some aspect, I know I am capable but not when it involves woman. I know i make a lousy companion because of the lack of knowledge on the other halve. Some might say it take years of experience to really understand what woman really wants, but for me, i think it's a complete bullshit. MEN WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND WOMEN!

Definitely not in this lifetime.




ps:this post was so long ago and never got published. =/

Everything against my will

Just another day where you wake up at the wrong side of the bed.

Couldn't sleep yesterday nite yet again. Why can't i fucking close my eyes??? why oh why?? I tried making myself tired by jumping up and down like a drunk rabbit.

Do you sleep soundly when someone is lying next to you?

Honestly, i'm so not used to it that my heart pump ferociously fast.

Is this normal?

I move like a bloody synchronize swimmer when it comes to sleeping. Her presence restricts me from being restless and i ended up sleeping like a dead corpse.

So today i came to work later than usual and i sneaked in without my boss noticing me. Who am i fooling i wonder? He has records of what i do...nice to hear leh, call it company policy...not nice to hear call it privacy breach dammit! Even my toilet break is being monitored...KNN

I had one of the most embarassing training today. Simply because i was feeling relatively tired and my eyes are half awake most of the time. 1 and 1/2 hours of torture! I was constantly dreaming and had to pinch myself to stay awake. God knows how many times the speaker caught me sleeping. PAisehnessssssssssssss

Absent minded kicks in again as i forgot to bring my phone bill out. Haih, deprived from calling out and getting calls the whole fucking day.. Sien like kukubird.

Hope for a luck switch at night. Lady luck...mana u ???

Sleepless nights...

I simply sit outside the porch at night sometimes,

Half naked bearing only my skinny arms and 'mini bonggol'.

With wind brushing gently on my uncomb hair

I lid a light on one hand and hold a cup of 100plus on the other.

Just to enjoy the midnight breeze or reflect on what I did..

Sometimes the bright pale moonlight lit the street.

and If you are lucky, you could catch a few faint stars from afar.

Ahhh the purity of night...

So silent.

So calm..

So serene...

The species called Morons

Sorry for not updating, I somehow lost my post yesterday due to IE flaws.

I'm a proud member of Moron.Inc, a group for the guys who knows nuts about woman. It is a corporation that unite useless, stupid, uncaring guys to fight for the one they dearly love.

Mind you, we do have our own way of expressing to the 'one', but sometimes it's hard to do so.


Don't say we are useless - because we still love you eventhough u know nothing about changing tyres.

Don't say we are stupid - because we still love you eventhough you end up in lunatic hospital

Don't say we are uncaring - because we still love you eventhough you have a figure of a Michelin mascott during pregnancy.

Don't say we are heartless - because we still love you eventhough you killed a cat or murdered a hamster accidently

Don't say we don't spend enough time with you - because we sometimes miss our soccer game with our buddies just to watch soap drama with you.

Don't say we don't communicate - because we always think of how to please you and how not to make you down.

Don't say we don't know how to make you smile - because we always think off the lamest jokes around just to put the smile back on your face.

Don't say we don't shower with you with gifts - because most of the time we picked you up from your saloon, spend you eat, bring you to the movies, and you think petrol cheap ar? j/k.

We know you always wanted a Knight with shininig armor or a handsome hunk who would sweep you off your feet. Too bad for the fairy tale , hooray to reality.

That's why we guys unite together to share opinions and exchange ideas so that we can be your Knight with tulang body or the man who snores next to you. 10 points for the girl who accept who we are.

Can't blame us leh, we are just plain morons who fall in love with someone.

=p

Cheers buddy!

Simplicity beautiful..

Something caught my attention when i was driving to work today.
This Indian man in his 30s was sweeping the floor just beside my car on the flyover to Jalan Sultan Ismail. He was so engrossed in his work that he started smiling for no reason.

He seems to be enjoying what he does obviously or else he wouldnt be laughing. I mean come on, scorching sun? Sweeping leaves off the streets? and salary that hardly enough?

Simple. He has no choice. But he's making the best out of it by enjoying the very moment. Sometimes it makes no bloody sense but the simplest things in life may be the best thing to have.

Just like a simple peck on the cheek. *wink*

Howie Day- She says

Just listen..I ain't promoting lesbianism

AGE? WHAT AGE?

Demi Moore and Ashton Kutcher
Age gap: 15 years
Status: Married. Still In love.

Tom Cruise and Katie Holmes
Age gap: 16 years
Status: Pregnant,Still In love.

Justin Timberlake and Cameron Diaz
Age gap: eight-and-a-half years
Status: In a relationship, Still In love.

Catherine Zeta Jones and Michael Douglas
Age gap: 25 years
Status: Married with children, Needs Viagra for Sex,Still madly In love.

Ralph Fiennes and Francesca Annis
Age gap: 19 years
Status: Ralph met Francesca nine years ago on the set of Hamlet, when she played his mother! In love and going strong.

Madonna and Guy Ritchie
Age gap: nine years
Status: They have a son, Rocco, and Madonna has a daughter, Lourdes, from her previous relationship with fitness trainer Carlos Leon. Still sexually active and in love.

Their face is beaming with smile = it means they are HAPPY!


I'm not a celebrity nor am I an actor. I don't even have my own car. I live with my parents and i hardly have enough savings to buy my own stuffs. Will you mind?
Love is beyond that.It's blind and holds no boundaries.

Why do you see an age gap of 1 year (maybe couple of months) being the obstruction of a relationship from blossoming? I don't care whether you've grown old and wrinkled all over. I don't care girl. I JUST DON'T CARE!

Why should u anyway? Age is not a factor and never will it be!!!

I need ciggy now.

Accepting people..

Byfar one of the happiest week of my life. Guess you guys knew about it. No need to elaborate further.

I've learned alot for the past couple of days. Whatever we say, whatever we do..somehow or rather we will contradict ourselves in the future.

To the person they like, one would just give in regardless of how different the opinions can be. For example;if it was a few years back..i wouldn't accept girls who smoke. Totally a turn off.A big NONO. But right now, if you can't beat them, join them instead!

Nah joking. =P

What i'm trying to convey is if you like someone so much, u'll learn to accept them no matter how different they can be. After all the teasing on other people and constant judgement on how bad the person is, you WILL eventually come to a point where the heart is ready to accept.

It works best if the other party are ready to compromise at the same time as well. Just remember noone is perfect. Everyone has his/her flaws. It boils down to you, whether you are WILLINGly to change to a better person or be a bad guy and turn people off.

I accepted who she really is and i'm not forcing her to accept me. In the process, I found happiness. I hope u guys will find it too, because i did.

Cheers.

Empty

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A gush of happiness ended in a rush of moment just because the grudge still holds.

Something about me me me me and me

Friday night once more.Time flies as if it was yesterday.
Its Been a wonderful week for me...so brilliant that i wished to say how good it was. Unfortunately writing about her will only lead to more questions.

We talked alot, over the phone and sometimes even face to face. Although sometimes there are communication barrier between us, we made it happen somehow. I'm really glad she's like what i always wanted. I guess paying 5 bucks for the lantern really pays off.

True love never runs smooth.This statement was actually taken from someone and I think its fucking true.

We've been talking alot about the past and how she ended up losing in the relationship being the victim of another fairy tale romance. I told her to be real frank about everything and she actually open up to me. I'm really grateful she shared her past, and god it hurts so bad sometime you wished you were there.

Unfortunately, there are some stuffs which haunts me right till today. Haih. Stress gila babi. And yeah i've started smoking again so Fuck the world. I smell like ciggerette butt right now it feels so pathetic. Don't worry it's not going to be a habit, only for momentarily, once everything is sorted out, I'll stop. I hope.

Anyone knows where to undergo brain wash operation??? Desperately need one right now.

Fuck
=/

Going slow and liking her even more. SEE ROAD!! WALK ROAD!!