Matter of time

Hey love, it's been a while
God it's good to see you smile

I see you reaching for your keys

Looking for a reason not to leave

I can't do what i do if it's you

I can't do what i do if we're through

I knew her look from behind

I knew her smile from above

These barrier they seem so high
Tiring enough to gaze the height
Mystery lies beyond the wall
Will i get answer if i try hard enough?

Words , they seem so cheap
But can meant a thousand grace.
Staring deeply into your eyes
Fell into a charming spellbind.

Hey girl, I miss you not once
Priceless ones are from within.
You leave me with a heavy heart
Everytime we fail to bid goodbye.

Guess i couldn't resist the temptation to make an entry. this place give me a shelter and a chance to be me.
I actually miss not having it.

Feels like a yoyo these days, happy, sad, grateful, contented, dissapointment, and happy back again. Such a mixture only leave me with greater confusion. A prayer keeps the mind calm and focus, make no room for hesitation and regrets. Trust me, the power of prayer are beyond words.
Let's hope it stays that way for many years to come.

Things are clearer now and should be heading to a better side of the fence. I'm only afraid that the fence on the other side is not as green as i thought it would be. I find myself pretty demanding at times. I want to, but afraid to, if you know what i mean.

i wonder what will life be without your existence? or will i be who i am right now? or will i ever meet someone so amazing as u are?
then i realized that answers to some questions are best not answered. I categorize it under the mysterious of life answer.
I don't wanna know the answers, because i believe u appeared for a reason, and knowing the answers will just defeat the purpose. U pick me up when i was down, showed me all the reason to smile. what more can I ask for.

This journey could never happened at a better time. I can never think of a better time than knowing u earlier somewhere else. And i've already boarded the ship. I admit. I love being on board.
You can say i naik kapal for all i care! The difference between a kapal and a kapal terbang is , when u decided to jump overboard, u survive, and u swim. You swim as hard as you can to find a shore.

=)

Aside from that, the most dissapointing point is when a friend tells you he's different now. That he choose. What made you think you're so different that the friendship between us is merely something u can toy with? Coming from you is such a dissapointment. All I hope for is a room to forgive and i do not want these friendship to just vanish into thin air. Words are cheap, I know, so another thing i wanna say to you is do whatever you want as long as you're happy !

There you go, a whole month of rant sardine into an entry.

I love the day the sunshine sip through the bubbles and shed light into our .........

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we do not get unlimited chances to have the things we want, and this i know..

but nothing is worse than missing an opportunity that could've changed your life

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i'm signing off from here =)

momentarily

maybe permanent

Staying +

I find the phrase "just forget what happened today" the most deceiving crap ever.
Only applicable if your mental state of mind is made out of plugs and wire.

You cannot forget, but you can definitely move on. Moving on takes time and it's not like something where u can seal it in a bottle and throw it in the sea. It take days and months and for rare cases like mine , i wait for something better to come along.

I slipped and never imagine myself being so horribly wrong in my doings. There is no regrets and it happened. I can't fix the damage but i know on my case i will never ever be so wrong anymore. Anymore.

I made a pact to keep myself from going down and stay sane. I've decided that certain things are made for one another and I have no intention to change the course. It can never change the fact that whatever you do as long as you're happy, it's okay. I shift to maintain what I have now, and i hope it work out.

Im going to stay positive and stop hoping. Ive decided to close the door and leave room to breath. A small hole doesn't hurt as much as giving a whole door. And thank you for bringing Him back to me. I talked,He listened. More than I can ever bargain for.

Break. I'm so hoping for 1 now. July please be around the corner.

Ten Queues

My mind is as clear as the sky tonite.

The wisest of words came spontaneously and points are well taken down. I'm really grateful for the advice given and it couldnt be anymore clearer than putting my legs back on the ground.

Thank you for telling me it's not wrong and asking me to believe that happiness comes from doing as much as you can and not regretting it at the end of the day.

Thank you for telling me not to dive deeper or swim away but to follow where the current flows and hope it lands somewhere.

Thank you for telling me that it's rare to find someone you can click so well with and don't ever leave any room for ignorance.

Thank you for telling me not to take things for granted and giving me back the sense of believing and what I'm capable of doing.

Thank you for being a friend and stop being so busy with work and forget what we are actually missing out on.

Haha. Had a great night and looking forward so much for my meal ! ;)

I'm going to prove that having an entry in my blog is not only when I'm sad.

Have a great weekend !