The longest week

It has been raining for the past whole week now.
10 days gone, less than a week to go and my heart is racing.
I need to get out of here.

Really.

Eventhough it's a short escapade, I still need be there to fill my thoughts with junk or perhaps unseen beauty? Who knows what awaits behind this few hours, who would know best but only you. One who hops and got me thinking whole night. Why did you came when it's cloudy?

Crap.

Life is not a box of chocolate. It's a load of cow dunk. Seriously. Life sucks when we think too much. Way way way too much till it become a disease. An uncurable plague of mind eating thought. Eats you up, inside out leave you alone and then attacks you from different angle.
Leave you defenseless, like a level 3 hero up against a level 25 hero.

Renewal.

Two weeks till O eight. It's been a tiring year. Emotionally and physically. I'm aging rapidly inside. The outer part is just a disguise.
Everything's changing. Those days where we stand still and wait for the wind to pick us up are long gone. Nothing's real now, everything's made believe and thats where everything goes wrong. When we stop believing.
I hope it's not a cycle, this life is made for more.

Well christmas is coming, and please let it be a white one. Nothing fancy, just a quiet holiday in a foreign land. A good time to start believing again. Come what may =)

Cheerios and Merry X-mas.