Resolutions

A week old from 2007, I have yet to state my resolutions for the year. =)

Let's see how last year's reso went.

- Grow some meat. Zh'ng my body.
Pass - havent had time to Zhn'g, definitely put on weight. Not that fat la, got mini bonggol only

- Eat more food, without having any complains from my friends.(Eat abit more kena scolding, niabeh)
Fail - still get frequent complains and always in the limelight when i complain hungry. Leave me alone =.=

- Put 30% of my salary into savings and buy properties/car. (I think this 1 cannot lar, see money in bank sure spend ..aiyoh)
Fail - Not enough money for myself, but i do have some savings now...Yay!

- Travel. Definitely want to see the open world. First stop, Australia!
Fail - Furthest I went was Redang =.= Ninabeh. This year i will get out from the country.

- Get a digital camera.
Pass - Got an Ixus 60 =)

- Will not get Wasted again. Will not get wasted again. Will not get wasted again.
Pass - Only wasted once this year. Very good achievement.

- Alcohol is not your friend. Remember that.
Pass - No more drinking for me. Only casual drinks on friend's birthday.

- Dota is only a temporary hobbie. Not a full time activity. REMEMBER that.
Pass - Been months since my last dota game. No more addicted to it

- Learn a new language. Not hamsap language ok.
Fail - Err, totally forgotten about this .

- Get PS3 by Christmas.
Fail - Just launch in Asia and freaking expensive.

- Try to find a new job closer to home. Less Jam, Less Stress, more money.
Pass - Got a new job. Less Jam
Fail - More stress, losing hair and not a very good pay. Two words ; bangla work

- Keep in touch with long lost friends.
Pass - Kept in touch with some Australian friends and been in touch with kindergarden friends. Still alot more to do.

- Get a new gf. ><
Fail - Miserably. hahah Like always

This year's Resolution

1. Visit at least 2 continents or 3 countries
2. Appear in newspaper for all the right reasons.
3. Get a new job that I enjoy doing.
4. Quit smoking and drinking entirely.
5. Be health concious and eat healthier food.
6. Pick up a new hobby
7. Meet a foreign friend.
8. Move out
9. Be less emo-er =)
10. Settle down

I think it's pretty much achievable. Just need to start getting work done. Hope you guys have a great year ahead !

Tandas Awam Revealed.

Have you check out the new public toilet kiosk in KL?


If you happen to be in Bukit Bintang or Lot 10 , do check it out for the sake of checking it out.


Don't worry it's always vacant. AND since people start complaining, they have reduced the price from RM1.20 to RM 0.20 =)


Even when it's cheap, utilizing the facility is another issue. Imagine entering an elevator-like toilet in the middle of the street.


Feeling hot outside? Don't worry, pay 20 cents , get a personalize air-cond!



Everything is motion sensored; the toilet seat, the basin, the soap dispenser, the hand dryer and even the lightings.
Oh and before you plan to take your own sweet time, wanking or thinking about doing quickie with ur honeybunny, DON'T ,because there is a 15 minutes time limit.

God knows what happen after the 15 minutes is up.

It's pretty neat if you ask me. Worth a try if you have really nothing better to do like me. BUT beware, because there is a big FLAW with this lovely toilet of ours. =)



Got nice mirror to cam whore sommore. Wah seh !




I wasn't wearing any pants when I took this picture.

Middle of nowhere

I'm sitting on the ledge waiting for the time to fly
People walked pass a guy with bandage on his right arm;sprained from excessive carrying of boxes.
The weather is rather humid today and thanks to the sound/air pollution, it adds up to the city-like feeling.
I have yet to bump into anyone I know. Should I be thankful or does that make me an anti-social person?
Strangers smile at me. I return the gratitude. Why shouldn't I?

I'm having my break now in 1901. Soon,someone will join me for a hotdog meal. The tantalizing taste of New York Chicken never fail to satisfy my tummy.

In front of me is an old lady begging for a decent meal. Her source of pityness comes from two innocent children sleeping by the walkway. One barely a year old and the second seems like a healthy 3 year old who's supposed to be having fun with kids his age. Not where he is now.

I pity them.

I have a few fears that haunt the living shit out of me eversince I was a child.
One of them is balloon.
I don't know why I'm very afraid of balloons. Burst balloon especially. Phobia perhaps? I had to deal with my fear today as I was the one pumping and distributing the balloons to my sandwich men. Everyone wants a helium balloon. I can make a fortune selling balloons to them.
Since it was free, you see children , teenagers , parents and even old lady came and ask balloon from me.

I was happy. I want to be a balloon man if there is any chance again. I'm happy being the balloon man =)

Happy new year everyone !

Some things are better left untouched.

Today is just another pictorial day. There I was in the middle of the crowd , just waiting for people to pass me by. I had shoulders rubbing against mine. Noises from cars I chouldn't careless. Different walks of life in front of me and none of them knew me. It is great to be foreign, sometimes.

So I just stood there. And froze in time.



Maybe I ought to move. Nibble my way out from the pack of people. But why do it if everything around you seems perfectly in place.

The last chapter

When you start counting the hours , nothing can be good anymore
Let alone a mundane 9 to 5 on the clock, or if the pay is lucrative.
If you don't feel belong anymore that's where the trouble starts.

I know I had been bitching about my current company in numerous occasions I couldn't recall,
whine so much about the management or how sucky it has become till everyone starts to yawn,
or even complaining about regrets that shouldn't have been made in the first place.

2006 is ending in a couple of days, and it has always been the same old years that has gone by previously. Just a normal routine of new resolutions, and reflection of what I have accomplished for the past 12 months.

I have to say, this year is remarkably productive if I were to put the whole picture together. Not a grand of stories worthy enough for a book or even something to be proud of, but still, just by looking back at specific months, somehow there are tiny fragments of memory that are worth jotting down on my buku tiga lima.

Just today I had a new task and was station in the heart of Bukit Bintang for some Digi roadshow. No, it's not like those yellow sperm suit you catch on TV, but similiar to it.
I am to escort a group of 'sandwich' guys/gals to parade around the golden triangle, and mind you, it ain't easy. My legs are killing me and I started sweating like a pig after just a couple of minutes under the scorching sun.

It's 'fun'. Really!. But knowing the fact that I have to work through New Year is not something you would want to remind me. I'll fuckin burn your house! and rip your teddy bear !
I will !
I'm evil !

Seriously. I'm like the worse paid bangla ever.

*sigh*

Recently, I realise that I have a very very veryyyy huge flaw hidden somewhere within me. I was reading Robert Peltzer's "a teenager's journey" where he talks about how bad his childhood was, and how he endured abusive remarks, and constantly being tormented from his mom. He couldn't let go of his past and live his teenage life doing all the wrong things that one could possibly imagine; drugs, alcohol and girls. He couldn't move on with his life. No matter how hard he tried to forget about the spiritual torture his mom left him, he couldn't be free. He had a lifetime scar, just like me. Only mine was different from his.

It's kind of hard to explain right now because everything is still very much vivid. A simple text goes a long way if you still have part of it in your heart. I really really need to move on and what makes me sad is I thought I did. The difference is I'm much stronger now, emotionally.

I definitely need a closure and I'm confident I'll get it soon.

The outcome, I dare not imagine.

25th December

Snowflakes,
inches of snow on the walkway,
Carolling,
Cookies and warm milk,
Gifts under the x-mas tree,
Santa's magical moment,
Elves and reindeer,
melting snowman,
couple kissing under the mistletoe,

sights of christmas i wish to see every year.

Merry Christmas Everyone ! =)

First attempt on Haiku

My first haiku
Begins with bang
Ends with dang?

Friday was ecstatic
Ferry Corsten is God
Loud! Electronic! Ferocious!

His hard-earn autograph
on a lousy printed leaflet
Frame it up or Ebay?

Saturday in Finnegan's
celebrated Kit's birthday
night of drinks, dart and drama

All thing ends well,
So we thought it would,
How wrong.

No casualties,
for a free flow evening,
only one broken heart

Sunday morning in bed
Just staring at the ceiling
waiting for gold to drop.

I got a twitch
on my right eyebrow
someone's stabbing me

I spend a fortune
I don't recall
on food perhaps.

blurry and in daze
stuck between spaces
he misses her so.

writing haiku in office,
getting ridiculous
time to jump the boat

Haiku haiku haiku

Hokkien lessons

I can't stop laughing watching this.

Something to cheer the office mood =)





not funny i chop !

hehe

My Diamond Baby

No, I'm not giving out diamonds. Diamond is not my baby either.

As I remembered,mind game that my brains went cuckoo was GodTower,

then when I got stucked at question 40-ish, i stopped playing.

Not till today, when I stumble upon My Diamond Baby.

I would have been fired today if caught, because I was practically playing this game the whole day

and I haven't fucking finish it yet.

Damn susah ok.

Don't blame me if you feel like throwing ur keyboard and mouse.

My kind of night

Another warm, windless night. Everyone seems to be away.
I was too bored at home , I went for a walk.
As usual, the neighbourhood was quiet as a soul.
The only noise I hear was my own footsteps.
My light took two minutes and 45 seconds to be exact.
Evaporated together with the time i intend to kill.
My shadow blends well with the trees,
It gave me the sense that I wasn't alone.
A lost man stopped to ask for directions.
I directed him hoping he'll reach safely.
Look to the skies, there wasn't any stars,
Only clouds that hid the moon so shy.
A frog lay still on an unfamiliar ground,
My leg was inches away from ending its life.
It never move, it never jump.
What a brave green frog, I said to myself.
I wish I had a dog to walk with me,
Just like the one I saw that day.
Call me mad, call me sad.
At least I had my mango with me.

Spellbound

"To him she seemed so beautiful, so seductive, so different from ordinary people,
that he could not understand why no one was as disturbed
as he by the clicking of her heels on the paving stones,
why no one else's heart was wild with the breeze stirred by the sighs of her veils,
why everyone did not go mad with the movements of her braid,
the flight of her hands, the gold of her laughter.
He had not missed a single one of her gestures, not one of the indications of her character,
but he did not dare approach her for fear of destroying the spell- Gabriel Garcia Marquez "

The last month

The growing intense politics in my company is driving me up the wall. The bosses just wouldn't listen to what the subordinates have to say. He just side the wrong side all the time and it's jeopardizing the mood and the morale.
There is not a single doubt in my mind that if I have a chance to drill some sense into his brain, I would do it, IMMEDIATELY.
I'm contented but will definitely move on if better opportunity arises. Heck, the company still owes me 5 off days. I just hate the undecisive decisions and last minute calls.

Getting on is the last month of the year. We are in the month of December and Christmas is just around the corner ! What the heck happened to the last 11 months? It's a shame that no major celebration is going to take place this year. Everyone has their own plans way earlier before we can decide on a small party. Just too bad.

Make a date this middle of the month with non other than the God of Trance; Ferry Corsten !! I'll be going there , 101% guarantee. His sets are bound to lift the mood. =) Remember, don't get wasted before he plays. Been awhile since my last clubbing scene, but this is a cannot miss event.


Tommorow is going to be bulat's birthday, so I'm going to wish him earlier here;

Happy Birthday Shannon Lung !!

keep on beroxxing !

ps: pictures will be up after QC =)

Sentence

The evening spells excitement
Been awhile since her radiance light the night
She smells like angels ought to smell
I fire up a cigarette and hands her mine tasting her lips on it
and suddenly my heart's pounding so loud I can't hear anything else
All the things I see in your eyes, the perfect eyes
So calm and innocent it sparkles like stars in a clear bright sky
She's soft and warm and almost weightless
Her perfume is sweet promise that brings tears to my eyes
I wanted to tell her that everything will be alright
That I'll save her from whatever she's scared of and take her far far away
Finally,still pictures of her eases my sleep
I wouldn't wanna Imagine what the real thing could do
I'm too dumb to put the whole picture together yet, but
whatever she said made a heartache; her current stand and persuade
The commas and word means nothing without the fullstop.
I'm certain for sure now that I'll wait for the next sentence to start

Gemini Man

A man in this Zodiac has a thin long and proportional face.
He has a high forehead and very cleaver.
He looks like he can not stand or sit still, a very fast person.
His nose is just right in size, thin lips, talk fast and very talkative.
He can think faster than he talks, but once he start talking, he will talk non stop as if god has gifted him with that special talk machine mouth.
He likes to cut his hair short and he is very athletic.
He is a tall, slim and every movement of his is "Fast" or nearly call "Hyperactive".
He has a long fingers and always tapping on table or moving his finger as if he is trying to grab something.
He is the type who will write or scribble on paper, he never stay still.
His hair always well comb or neat.
He will spent a long time to comb his hair.
He will keep his manicure and pedicure clean.
He is a well dress and clean guy, so if you like cleanliness, you will love him.
He will keep all his cloth in big closet, and never throw away even shirts he never wear any more, but yet he still keep buying new cloths and make sure he is in style.
He knows how to dress well even with a low budget.
He get bored easily with his favorite cloths , cologne.
He is very picky, so soap and his cologne even have to be in the same trend or same scent.
If you date this kind of guy, you might think you are dating 2 guys, you will have to guess his feeling and emotion.
Is he doing thing because it is a duty, or is it because he wants to?
He change his mind as fast as he change a new pairs of shoes.
He can pick up a book and roughly read through and understand it's contents, so if you see a Gemini man who reads the whole book, then he must be influenced by other Zodiac.
He hate to set fix schedule, and dislike a boring same routine job.
He could hardly be on time, and can only keep time if it is complete important and necessary.
He does not come late because he forgets, but because he always find other attractions along the way.
He likes to act opposite to what he wants to do.
He is a very good speaker and make a very good politician.
He can easily persuade other people and well presented himself in public, a real charmer.
If he is a writer, he will write the best seller.
He always search for truth and constantly study himself.
He never satisfy about his fame, his reputation or money, because he thinks he deserved more. He will keep searching even he is not sure what is his ultimate satisfaction.
Woman in love normally wants to feel secure and stable, but if you fall in love with this guy be prepare to be alone.
He will come to see you when he feels like it.
He won't even know how he spent his days everyday, so adjust yourself if you love him.
Dating him is like dating 2 guys, so today he can tell you how much he loves you, but tomorrow he might call you to cancel your date.
When he upsets, he could tell you he hate your dress, even it is the same dress he used to tell you make you look very sexy.
Do not ask him why he is that's way for he won't have any explanations too.
When he is back to normal mood, he will take you out again and forget what just happened.
You can not expect him to be the same person now, and forever.
His changes will depend on you, for better or for worst.
If you like to take risk and dare for challenges, you will get along with him fine.
He keeps his emotional secretly as if hiding it, so you will not be able to see if he crazy in love with you, or does not give a damn at all, but be calm and patient.
He will never leave you if he thinks you are a puzzle, then he will spent times solving this puzzle.

Hmm, at least i'm human =)

Have a nice day !

A night to remember

It's always nice to deep into the pool and just float, regardless of when and purpose.
Yesterday night was simply amazing. It was Max's birthday and for the first time in many months, I enjoyed myself.
The last minute plan almost ruin the night,but luckily I made it in time to catch the guys before they headed out. I drove through jungle and heaps of road till we arrived to Paula's apartment. I must say, everyone was surprised when the place we were gonna chill was beside the pool.

The guys brought along some food and of course booze.

After getting our stomach stuffed with food, JD and I couldn't decide whether should we jump into the pool or not. Honestly, I wasn't prepared but thank goodness for the football shorts. JD made his presence noticed and went in first. I followed on after a couple of COKE and chicken wings =) .
I tell you, swimming in the middle of the night really shrink the balls out of you. It was damn freaking cold ok. Mahai. Really sok tan until cannot sok.

Paula was kind enough to bring us towel from her apartment and we managed to persuade her to the pool too. I think She's one happening cool chick at her age.

The turn off point was when a residence shouted "Do you know what time is it? It's 3 am and you guys are swimming !"

Ahaha, luckily it was a human who was shouting, not some white being with long hair standing on the edge of the hill. Apparently, the place was haunted , but who cares anyway.
In the end, we packed up and ran to the cars as if we were fleeing from a crime scene. No evidence was left behind except for ciggerete butts and chicken bones. =)

All in,it was a night to remember. This is 1 thing that I will always remember.

Happy 21st Birthday Maximilius Abbas Wan ! and stop hacking my multiply MOFO!

Tip tap tip tap

I'm bored. Are You?
If yes,feel me.





don't say i didn't warn you.

Something about the truth

Here I am half past three looking at the screen not knowing what to write.
My mind is rather empty from the hectic schedule and the morning shower awakens my urge to pen an entry.
A week has gone , a collection of thoughts linger in my already fickle mind. The harder I try to forget , the deeper it gets into the back of my head.
I've not been in this stage in a very long time, needless to say I'm contented to move. Time is the only reason I can give to start making pace again. To walk once more.

I sat in the park today, looking at children passing through mazes , swinging their way to joy and running off happily to their guardian. They looked happy. Was I once like that? I hardly could recall.
Don't get me wrong, I love my childhood. Eventhough it's the faintest of my memories, but sweet ones still lives inside me. I remembered how I almost fell to my death , scratched in the face leaving a clear scar and perhaps being caught stealing money just to buy slurpee from 7-eleven. Haha, that wasn't sweet , was it.

I had sweet ones, really. Too many to bore anyone =)
I want to be a kid again. Just for a day. I want to eat cotton candy and waste my time in the park. Or play hide and seek and never be caught. Or tell lies and still look innocent ! Or get small little pecks from strangers and have no clue why they even do it in the first place ;) . I just want to feel young again and never grow up!

24 years down the road . Amazing how it just flashes pass your very eyes. Am not enjoying every single moment of it. Should have had in the beginning and not thinking about the regrets.
Funny thing is, I'm still learning how to live. I guess something never ends till your last breath.
I wonder whether as the generation change, will life be complicated as well? I'm sure our parents have not thought about the future when they were our age. Or have they , if not we would'nt be around in the first place. =)

I believe we live in a world where 24 hours is never enough. Never enough to do anything of any interest. Especially sleeping. I have come to my sense that everything needs to be in a balance, like the nuts between the legs or the pillar that holds a building . Without balance, it will just collapse and drag you down together with the earth. Without balance, we just live in a world of selfishness and end up being a lonely sadistic chap. I'll start my balancing soon. And just wait what's coming ahead of me !

If life was a person, I'll say "bring it on mofo !"




james bond rox =)

Chasing you

I believe that sweet memories stays in you forever, and bitter ones eventually fades away.
I believe some things are made to last, and some just dissapears at the shortest of time.
I couldn't be bothered about the future because what awaits ahead is pretty scary. By the time you know it, life's too short you won't even know it's coming.

Someone told me chasing girl is like chasing cars, you wouldn't know what to do when you really have one. I presume part of it is true.

How I feel right now doesn't matter anymore because the distance kept us away. Those 3 words I couldn't say is going to die in me. The closest I've ever been is sitting next to you in movies. All that I ever was is here in your perfect eyes, they're all that I can see.
It would be a lie if I said I stopped thinking about you, because I do think about you whenever I'm alone. If I lay here, would you lie with me and forget the world?

Very late post, I'm so sleepy i don't know what I'm writing, haha . Italic phrase is taken from chasing cars by snow patrol. Really a lovely song.


and the long awaited pics are here !! Finally =) sorry too busy la

Bangla at work

Yay, I'm in the exact same spot where I was sitting on Sunday. In A Bloody Cyber CAFE in Sungai WANG !!! Woohoooo! fucking lame rite? haha

It's raining and I've done visiting outlets. And don't even think about asking me to walk around this lala-infested complex because I've already visited every nook and corner there is. Sien until can see flies flying around my cap.

Really la !

Do banglas have offdays when they work? I'm sure they do. Prolly once a week? If the answer is yes, then I admit I'm in a state where I'm worse than them. Event EVENT EVENT, Killing my Sense ! Yay it rhymes .

I've worked 12 days now without any off days. And thinking back about makes me a complete fool. Why am i so hardworking ?!! Why did i not take any MC ?!! why why why fucking hell, I'm all drained up . Tank emptying real soon.

I wanna go holiday! So badly. I just imagine myself on an island with a glass of Malibu. Was contemplating about it for quite some time already, and just yesterday there's this huge sign:

"Phuket + Pattaya = RM899 6 days 5 nights"

WHOA ! Is this godsend?

I think it is ! hahaha now the question is should I or should I not ?

So tempting sial! Can pay by credit card mah ! enjoy first, suffer later. haha

See you guys soon, running out of credit

and

Happy birthday Julian Edwin Matthew... You rox ! not

The days are gone

Sorry for the lack of updates, been pretty occupied with work and new projects.

Too many things has happened within a week or so and there were things i never thought of doing and time seems to be out of reach , constantly going too fast i hardly could catch up with.

Friends who came into my life and friends whom i no longer knew. Friends who treat u as brothers, close friends who seems to be drifting apart. I felt that the circle of friends that I hang out with are slowly stepping out 1 by 1 to make new smaller circles. It may still be connected in 1 way with your circle but things just ain't the way it used to be.

Is that part of moving on? We used to complain about the lack of 'spice' in our life and seems like everyone dig deep to find the spices and forgot about the 'pot' . Ahahah what rubbish analogy.
Anyhow, It's not a bad thing, and I'm not complaining either, it's ur life anyway. AND I'm not going to be a hero or play GOD to make everything back to normal but I do hope that our frequent yumcha session and meeting up are not limited to just birthday parties and clubbing. =/
It can be lonely sometimes, but who am i to complain?

Few days back ago in SS15, i had an incident with mother fucking snatch thief who seems to terrorise our peaceful neighbourhood nowdays. It began after my training in Streamy X outlet near SJMC. It was roughly around 8pm and the streets wasn't well lid. So, my colleague who happens to walk across to my car while talking on the phone was the victim here. She felt suspicious because there was a Malay guy with helmet walking on the road but the motor was nowhere to be seen. So we were half a feet away from my car and suddenly this guy tried to grab her sling back and handphone. She screamed and held my arm, and luckily she was close to me. I chased that fucker and got hold of his sling bag assuming that it was my colleague's. Dragged him down and i got pulled down to the ground as well. A few feet away was his mother fucking friend who was waiting on the bike tryin to get a quick escape. He got out from his bike and tried to kick me. I was on the ground and tried to kick him so that he will stay away from me. The fucker who went down with me tried to throw punches at me. I stood up and demanded the bag from them. They shouted they didn't take anything from my colleague. It was bad. Luckily there was a Kenari driving past and it stop knowing what had happen. I took down the number plate "WDC 3459". They sped off with the half ruin motorbike. It was damaged because the guy on the bike dropped his bike while trying to save his friend. This fucker tried to fool people by removing the number '3' on the bike, so if anyone tried to take their license plate would only see 3 numbers instead of 4.

It happened really quick, and who would have thought that this thing will happen ? Noone was hurt, nothing was taken, that's a good thing. But the fuckers were gone. Just be alert and be realy really careful whenever you walk on the road. You never know what might hit you next. My colleague was left traumatised by the incident, but the main thing is , she's ok.
This fuckers who commit such despicable act shall rot and burn in hell. We ain't save anymore ! Police corrupted, government siding the wrong side. Time to buy a boat and escape to an island !
Anyone with me??? Guess not.