Happy yappy sappy ...;)

Yea man, early post!

Wah liu, this month seems like forever.
I can't wait for it to over and get my bloody pay!!! I have debts to settle and after clearing my credit card payment for the first time, I'm BROKE!
Not really lar, got savings this month =) hehe.

I'm proud of myself being able to save RM400 bucks this month after all the frequent visits to alcoholic den and partying like a wild animal. RM400 wei! Alot sial. I saved this much also because there is noone to spend accept for MYSELF!! =)
Bought a few shirts and 2 t-shirts recently. Shiok gila. Damn long never credit myself.

X-Men 3 is a crappy movie. Cheesy and so predicatable. Mahai like making movie to cheat small kids.
The good guys are sooo outnumbered. Wolverine still the yengness with his black suit. Storm is being candy-ass whipped by Calysto. Beast is ugly. Mystique is hot only when she's naked. Juggernaut/Vinnie Jones adds a comedy touch to the movie. Cyclops/ Professor X die like pussies. Archangel the sidekick looks like a fag who poses like a proud peacock. Phoenix/JeanGrey is like the mutant of all mutants.She just stands there and everything around her incinerates. Even the mighty Magneto who is supposed to be the most vicious villain of all brotherhood could not cope with her wrath. Oh btw, Magneto lost to a needle and see him run like a sissy =) How pathetic.

Oak's party on Saturday was a blast. HE got wasted far too early in the night. Tired konon. NAH =.=_|_. So much drink left, in the end I was the second target. Niamafulat tubby.

Pictures uploaded in yahoo photos. ID : tubztubztubz PW: godlike

I wasn't drunk. Just high.

Lastly, I'm glad she finally messaged me. I left my MSN on when I went home from work. It made me smile. At least I know I'm still her friend. Who would have thought a simple message breathes a sigh of relief. Thanks ;)

I'm craving for CS. Clan match anyone?

Moving on...

Aight, my mistake for not updating.My fault for being a lazy ass. I'm so preoccupied with workloads I hardly have time for myself or to shit.

I have tonnes of photos still waiting to be uploaded from previous outings. NO time lar blahder. Come back tired. No time to blog, only got time for O.C. And yes, I'm hooked to O.C because it rocks my socks. How can you not fall for Marissa? Or or Lindsay? Ahhhh Teen dramas, just my kind of soup. Anyone who disagrees can just bang the wall. If anyone of you have the previous season please oh please I'll be your slave , I'll do whatever you want... I just need my daily doze of O.C.

I'm slacking off at work right now not knowing what to do. My PC is not working and I have to wait for the technician to fix it. Ahh what a day of enjoyment. Still envy those fuckers who get to stay away from office. Haih, i really need to get a job beyond office compound. I hate being tied down to a chair and a computer not able to move around like a free bird. I want to feel the sun !! the rain!!! the smell of polluted air our great malaysians are causing!!
Seems like everyone is job hopping. I can't bare to do so. Sadly to say, I'm too attached with my colleagues and friends over here that I hate to leave.

I know, i know..that shouldn't be the way. I'm reluctant ok! and i'm different. I just don't jump into new things that easily.

I've been thinking lately about relationships and getting involved with girls. I know nuts about them. Honestly, it's like a bloody holy grail altogether understanding them. Dig deep my friend, and you shall be granted with your wildest imagination. Oh yeah, and don't ever ever ever ever ever get involved with someone who doesn't have feelings for you in return. It really sucks being the only jerk who claps alone. You know what makes a bigger jerk? Being ignored =.=. Basket!
Maybe I've done it before not realizing it. Sakit gila babi punya balasan.

It's ok...I'm moving forward like a new Toyota. It just have to end this way? Very da bagus.

Looking forward to weekend!!!! Oak's birthday man..we gonna have booze! yummie!!! He is so going to get wasted. Those with credit cards, please fork out cash and kasi dia graveyard!! We see how many glass he can tahan before white foams oozes out from his mouth. LAn C sommore lar.. =.= You WILL pay for your sombongness. Who joining me? *support sikit ok, i don't want to be the only sohai here who does it >.<*

Before i forget, today is my mom's birthday. I'll buy you cake ok. Don't be grumpy and stay healthy! Happy birthday!! Love ya!

Adios

If only....I had a million bucks...

Weekend is here again..for once I'm not looking forward to it. Weekend or weekdays, it's still crappy for me.
Sien until tulan. Tulan until can grow moss. My life need a major zh'ng. A big big transition. If only i had money , things will be different then.

IF I had a million bucks right now,

-I'll buy a Honda Civic.
-I'll get my ass to Amsterdam and eat space cakes all day long.
-I want to feel heaven in Shinjuku.
-I'll get world cup tickets for all Italy matches.
-My friends will get a grandfather chivas each.
-Get Dark by Design to play live set in ss18 padang.
-Build a nice house.
-Bribe my way to dinner with Sarah Tan.
-Send my parents for a nice holiday.
-Buy a billboard and hang my face with the title "I rox"
-Quit the company and self employed
-Put 100k in the bank for rainy days.

and the list go on...

I knew my name means something...

You'll know that you are addicted to Dota when your name resembles 1 of the heroes name.

alvin wong -- [adjective]: Banshee-like 'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Behold my friends! Fear my Spiritsssss ! Watch out for my swarm of beessssss .

Wait i try something else

alvin wong wai hon -- [noun]: An alien 'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

WHAT THE FUCK? Bloody random generator. Now I'm ET.

Last 1

sohai -- [noun]: A poltergeist sent back in time to change the course of history forever 'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

The meaning more yeng than my name, but no thanks =)

*WARNING*Another emo rant.

This is one of the entries that I wished you would stumble upon.
Just to let you know how much I missed you so.

You had me wandering helplessly since the day it took a twist.
Somehow the conversation just stopped.
No more laughing, no more silly jokes, no more 'what you've been through'
and no more 'I miss you'.

Who do I turn to now when I can't sleep in the middle of the night?
Sometimes, I just stare blankly to the ceiling just thinking..
What the hell have I done wrong?

I'm stuck between a hello and a goodbye.
Not knowing whether to move on or to stay or wait for a miraculous spark to happen.
Confused like a bird who lost his mother.
Where do I go from here since I have clipped wings.

I stand by here every single day, hoping to get and answer from you.
Just because I don't want to assume and get all the wrong ideas.
The cold treatment, the "I will call you back" but didnt are signs...
Are you asking me to stay away from you?
Call me stupid , call me naive... Is it really that hard to tell me?
I realized i hit the wall far too many times I'm immuned to it.

Ever wonder why I still do so?
I still like you that's why and I'm not asking you to like me back.
I just need to know, where do I stand at this moment.

I've come to a point where there is no turning back.
You taught me things I never knew and I've not been who you always wanted me to be.
You can't change people.
At least in this world, there are still people who cares about you.

Beginnings are scary. Endings are usually sad, but it's the middle that counts the most.

All i wanted is to be close to you and my hope still floats..

A visit to Kinokuniya

Today I was so semangat I walked all the way to KLCC just for fucks.
I was thinking what I should do with my 45 minutes break?

Hmmm

*kacheng*
Walk walk lor, take many many pictures like a tourist lor...and off I went under the bright sunny sky. I sweat, embraced the hot day and endured the heavy traffic just for the Fucks of it. =( How mo liu .

Thinking of not spending any money,I headed to Kinokuniya just to kill my time. And I know,I wouldn't spend my money on BOOKS.

Now,I present to you, books for the book enthusiast and books that are soooo wrong to be even selling on the shelf!!! Very very wrong indeed.

1.) Soccer Star's Bibiography

They sell english speaking superstar soccer player's biography like Beckham, Rooney, Lampard , Keane ; you name it they got it, but can they actually WRITE? Hmmm....We don't see any Malaysian players like Dollah,or Zainal or Bambang writing biography =.=" Maybe they did, in Indon or Malay...who knows.

2.) The Da Vinci Mania

Here:

and more of it

You can't get enough of Da Vinci do you...Already one of the all time best seller, published in numerous languages, got a movie coming soon, been critizied by the Pope, hmm what else?
Maybe start writing about other Da Vinci's painting?

3.) For the crusades.

A must have for Jesus freak. I would buy it if I were a Christian. Read the title of the book oso scared lor.. "HOLY BLOOD, HOLY GRAIL"! and they forgotten to include "HOLY COW,HOLY EXPENSIVE! and HOLY MACORONI"

4.) Shocking book on tourism

Hmmmmmmm...Book says tourism, but the cover shows nen-nen. ? CONFUSED? Me too. Sommore got star on the nip =.=" , This Nirpal guy really twisted. What was he thinking anyway.

5.) Book for the losers

Ever wonder why you have no money, no life, no gf, no goals? This is an alternative solution to people who doesn't have mirror at home.

6.)WTF Book.

A book that goes OMGWTFBBQKKTHXBYE..What's wrong with these people anyway ?

7.) A book for guys

If you still love your gf eventhough she's a pain in the ass, spending all your money, and keep telling you that your friends suck big time...read this;

You ain't alone buddy.

I had to stop snapping photos because this cannot-make-it lady who happens to work at the counter asked me not to do so. =/ Dissapointed sial. So i walked away and it was time for work soon. I make my way to the exit and couldn't help myself but to take one last shot on this lovely book.

=)

Remember i said no buying things?

I contradicted myself and bought this magazine..

20 bucks down the drain =*( but it was worth it!!!!
WORLD CUP ROX OK! and AZZURI ROX! other country can go saupei!

I'll definitely be going back there again one fine day.

Genting trip , revisited...

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
5 Mou lais went up the hill
G-E-N-T-I-N-G
What to do with time to fill
C-A-M-W-H-O-R-I-N-G

It was raining in Genting and we had to stay back awhile. Startlar the cam whoring session.

Directions:

The mist in genting:

Starbucks in Genting:

Seehoe: "Wei, just now i saw this girl, her ass was thisssssss big! "

All: Must be Sin Ka Lan lar this Seehoe

Act cool but more like poser.

Now never ever ever leave your camera alone with Ivan.
These are the shots he take of HIMSELF!! Super Pei man ...

WAHLAUEH! CANNOT WEI

WAH THIS 1 Lagi VOMIT BLOOD

This is 1 of the only picture of Tek. Konon lar want to act cool, don't want to take picture with us. Nah kena penumbuk

And lastly, Seehoe's malay CMI chick. Cardboard oso don't want to let go. You say lar, how desperate is he.

We tried to adjourn to the carpark, but unfortunantely it was still raining. Then some joker had a brilliant idea of making prank calls to our beloved friends in Subang. =)
We dig deep into our pockets for loose change, and we managed to prank 4 people in total.
That night, we had 3 personalities; "Ah Hiu", "Ah Tan" , and "Ah dont know what" the loansharks =P

Steady lar our acting.






Got more pictures, but lazy to upload . Check it at alvinn.multiply.com

Random rant.

During those times when Internet was not a boom yet, I had a small diary book to keep me company. It was a black classy book with a book mark attached to it. Writing was more like a hobby back then. When you read back what you wrote couple of years down the road, somehow you remember back the good old days. That's the best part.

I was never good in writing. One of the things that i regretted is having myself joining the IT industries. If I had the choice back then, I would have join journalism Or Psychiatric studies. I have the habit of thinking for other people. I know when people is 'tulan' or 'bohsong', but it only applies to guys. So damn easy to read. When it comes to woman, then there will be a lil bit of problem there.

Most guys would say they are from a different planet. I would agree so. Their ego , emo , banging sessions, they are like a class above the guy species. 'Terra' like hell. The mood swings are worse than share market. It would be a man's dream to possess power to read woman just like Mel Gibson in "What Woman Wants".

My weekend was great. Uncle lim handed over some cash to me just when I desperately needed them. Although it's not alot, but sufficient enough to last me through 2 weeks. We played prank calls using public phone in genting and it was fucking hilarious. I'll youtube it when i bring my camera. =)

Sorry to all the victims. Please don't report to 'mata' ok. We are just bunch of innocent people who just wants to kill time.

Feeling very drowsy now, I'm heading back home at 2.15pm soon.

Catch you guys later.

The story so far...

Sorry for the lack of updates.

Alot of things messing in my mind like a fucking washing machine. I'm trying to clear things out one at a time. Here are the breakdown of what is going on with my life..

Work
Corporate support job is not as easy as I thought it was. I hardly have enough sleep nowadays due to the fact that I'm working a 5 am shift right now. I can't sleep at night as well because the weather is playing a major part in screwing my mood to sleep. I'm so busy i hardly notice the time flies so fast. Thank god for work, or else I'll be fucking bored to death.

Don't get me wrong, I hate working in this company. It's just that I need to have a sense of believing I'm doing something for money and not wasting my life like a sampah masyarakat.

Family
Mom and dad are surprisingly cheerful nowadays. At least now I have the time to talk with my dad before I go to work because sometimes he sleeps on the mattress downstairs.
Somehow i didn't tell them the truth about her not being who they wanted her to become. I just kept silent about the whole thing,they assume she was who she was, I leaked nothing out to them hoping that maybe 1 day they figured it out for themselves.

Her
Honestly, I have no flying fuck what went wrong here. Maybe I should have seen it coming a long long time ago. The calls and SMSes just ended . Don't ask me why, I'm dumbstruck as well. She said she will return the calls, but never did. Somehow I get the picture. The truth hurts like hell , but being ignored is just worst than that.
Am i too pushy? am i taking things for granted? am i not worth your 5 minutes?

You tell me...

Somethings are never meant to be together. All i ever wanted to be is to prove to her that I'm not those type of guys who she thinks I am. So much for trying hard, it ended up nowhere. At least i gave it a shot,and only if was given more time.
I guess that was it. I don't whether it's the end or not, hopefully i'll get the answer 1 day.

I'm not eyeing for the silent goodbye.

My Escapade to Redang

Back to work after a long week of holiday. So have not felt so reluctant at all.

When i stepped into the office, everyone started looking at me like I'm from planet Awankawanka 6754. OK maybe I'm abit tanner, but don't lar say my skin glowing. It's an insult you know. Me ish Chinese, not a goddamn Glow in the Dark stick.

Anyway...

I was in Redang with 3 mah lat lous. Initially it was 7 mah lat lous, but in the end, 1 broke his leg, 1 lazy to go and the remaining 1 more didnt have enough moolah. My budget was tight for the whole month, but I decided to go anyway mainly because it's my first time neh, haven't been to Terengganu before in my entire life. Jakun like hell..

I always wanted to know how a clean beach felt. And so I did. It was such a superb experience.

Pictures will be up once everything is settle down. I'm still having jet-lag from the 30 minutes flight >.<

Tata

My mundane life.

Alright, I have been working close to a year now anddd god knows how many tims I've complained about it. I'll give you an indepth of what's like to be working in the heart of KL.

Monday-Friday Daily Routine. Works start at 9 pm.

7.30am: Wake up.
7.31am: Devil says "Sleep back, you still can make it in time" *Takes a nap*
7.45am: Mom shouts from the kitchen.
8.00am: Finally wakes up.

Federal Highway is always a pain in the butt after 7.30 am. =.=

8.45am: Stuck in Jalan Sultan Ismail



9.01-9.10am: Reached office.



This is my work place.



and this is how i act busy. (when boss around)



this was the whole cover up-. =)



1.00pm : Sneak out for lunchie

1.45pm: Back on the dot. My break is only 45 minutes which kindda suck. Other people have 1 hour break, but not me. Our company demand us to be loyal. On Fridays, Muslims have 1 hour and 30 minutes break + 45 minutes break . Totally unfair.

2.00pm: Work

(In between culi tulang)

3.00pm: Work

(In between culi tulang)

4.00pm: Work

(In between culi tulang)

5.00pm: Work

(In between culi tulang)

6.00:pm: Pack my bags and leave for the day.

The Most Evil Thing Ever Created by Man..

CREDIT CARD!

Finally got it on Tuesday. Yahooooooooooooooooooo



Shinning bird, with nice name and nice credit limit of RM5000 babeh!!!!! =)

The following day...





=*(

Nice to see, nice to hold, once swiped, welcome to the hailat.com world.

Better control myself.

More cam whoring to do.

Essence in life...family and love

Nothing beats spending quality time with someone close to you.

I've been neglecting those who are right in front of me and I'm deeply sadden for what I've done. I would be dumbstruck do if they would have suddenly leave me one fine day.

Yesterday was my grandpa's 90th birthday. It was a quiet dinner nevertheless until one my my uncle breaks the ice.

The dinner room was quite posh. WE HAVE OUR OWN TOILET BABEH!!! how cool is that? and a karaoke set too. Out of nowhere, he grabs the mic and started singing. WTFBBQ heh? If he was 30 years younger, he would have beat the crap out of Daniel the Malaysian Idol. Seriously. =)

As usual, i endulged myself with 3 bowls of Shark's fin soup. Hohoho and the food tasted not bad at all. Way much better than niabeh overrated "Oversea" or "Five happiness" restorans.

Everyone was so light-hearted and jovial. Practically everyone is smilling. My grandma who has hearing problem,managed to give a warm smile too. Somehow she knew something my mom didin't . Grandma power.

How I was she was there too. =(

I'll be going off for holidays this weekend. Initially it was the 7 of us, but now it boils down to only 4 musketeers. Don't Worry, WE WILL STILL ENJOY OURSELVES!!!! That's for sure. I'm running off to the sweet'ol beach in Redang! Woohoo crystal clear water..! and sandy beaches/bitches.

It's gonna be my first time in Redang and i badly needed this break. Away from workload and stress, from dota...from citylife..from alcohol?

I'll definitely miss you when I'm there. Haih. Why do i give in so easily hah. Bloody weakling.

Sometimes I just wished you feel the same way as I do.

Time to buzz off.

Update later.

Which Superhero are you?

Your results:
You are Hulk

Hulk 90% Superman 70% Spider-Man 70% The Flash 70% Batman 60% Robin 55% Supergirl 45% Wonder Woman 30% Green Lantern 30% Catwoman 0% Iron Man 0%

You are a wanderer with amazing strength.

Click here to take the "Which Superhero are you?" quiz...



woohoo..mummy buy me more swhirts pwease >.<

Nocturnal

4.30am: Feeling lost.

4.35am: Kaiwern came online.

4.40am: Going to have a drink to clear my mind.

Me-Me: Questionaire

Details, details and more details

Nicknames: Art, Kush , Sohai, Soh Chai, Soh lou,
B-day: 14 June
Age: 24
Sex: Male
Where do you live: SS18 Subang
Pets: None. All dead.
Zodiac Sign: The twins.
Righty or Lefty: Righty. Lefty when exercises is needed.
Hair color: Black
Hair length: Short
Eye color: Dark brown
Height: 5 ft 8" (I think.)
Do u wear contacts or glasses?: glasses most of the times and contacts when i feel the need to.
Do you have any piercings? Nope.
Do you have a tattoo? Nope. Maybe I'll get 1 if i decided not to be in the Wong family.
Do you wear any rings?Nope. I crack my knuckles. Inconvenient to wear any.
Do you have a certain fashion you follow? Anything which is comfortable. I don't wear ahbeng lala attire.

Current News...

How are you today?: Relaxed. Worried.
What pants are you wearing right now?: Black pants
What shirt are you wearing right now?: Working shirt
What does your hair look like at the moment?: Messy. I woke up late today.
What song are u listening to right now?: Dark by Design
What was the last thing u ate?: Nasi Daging Merah *drools*
Last person you talked to on the phone?: Who else.
Last Dream you can remember: Walking with her, but forgotten where to.
Who are you talking to right now?: My colleague on the floor
What are the last four digits of your phone number?: 5568

Random Stuff..

If u were a crayon, what color would u want to be?: Black
What CD are you going to buy next?: Waste money, We ish malaysian lang, we no buy cd wan. we support pilated cd ok.
What's the best advice ever given to you?: Good things will come to those who wait.
What are your future goals?: Own a pub on a remote island
Do u like to dance?: Yea babeh. Hami dance oso wah boleh.
Worst sickness u ever had?: So far none. Touch wood.
What's the stupidest thing u've ever done?: That pee tastes like water.
If u could change one thing about yourself what would it be?:Definitely taller.
Where do you shop the most?: Sunway Pilamid

Ever more random stuff...

How many kids do you want to have?: A football team if possible. A dota team is more realistic.
Son's name: Anakin
Daughter's name: Anya
Do you do drugs?: :)
Do you drink?: YUps. Water, Ribena, and Teh O ais. Redbull occasionally. (Added with alcohol)What kind of shampoo and conditioner do you use?: Sunsilk (Drops a comb on my hair and watch it slide)
What sport do you hate the most?: Golf
How many TV's do you have in your house?: 2 only
Do you have your own?: Yea
ur own phone line?: Handphone only, the phone line is gone.
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?: NO =.=
Have you ever broken/sprained/fractured a bone?: Dislocated arm got lar, Broken havent yet.
Who do you dream about?: About 2 of my best friends son who ends up telling their dad respectively that they are in love. >.<(while holding hands)

Are you sappy Romantic?

Do you believe in Love?: I do.
Do you have a girlfriend or boyfriend?: It's complicated
Do you have a crush?: Yea. All the time.
Do you believe in Love at first sight? Yup, but the cupid sure has a bad sense of aiming.
Where would you like to go on your honeymoon?: Anywhere with beach!!! Mauritiaus?
What song do you want played at your wedding?: Bon Jovi- Thank you for loving me
What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?: Eyes and smile. The 2 most important assets.
Are you shy to ask someone out? YES! My face turns red like a monkey's backside.
Who do u want to spend the rest of your life with?: =)

Guys on Girls (Guys only, unless you like to fondle tofu)

Sandals or thongs: Thongs lar!
Painted nails or not: Must be painted perfectly
Regular or sports bra: Sports bra.
Bra straps showing or not: Don't wear better
Cute n' mysterious or wild n' sexy: Cute n’ wild ;)
smart or dumb: Smart
Dark or blonde hair: Dark
Long or short hair: Medium Length
Curly or straight hair: Doesn't matter
Dark, light, or crazy cool eyes: Light . Don't chao tut enough.
Long or short nails: Short. So she cannot scratch me.
Hat or no hat: No hat.
Good or bad girl: Good girl
Hair up or down: Which hair?
Jewellery or none: Not too much. Necklace, bracelet and ring. ENough.
Tall or short: Shorter than me , so i don't look like a dwarf
Accent or no accent: Accent.
Pants or dress: Dress
Tan or fair: FairFreckles or none: Freckles please...Girls with freckles are to die for!!
Shy or outgoing: Outgoing
Talkative or quiet: Both.
Pretty indoor chick or crazy party chick: crazy indoor chick

Choices, choices...

Lights on/off: Lights Off. I'm a shy person.
Sun or rain?: rain
Do u like scary or happy movies better?: Happy movies
On the phone or in person?: In person
Paper or plastic?: paper
Summer or winter?: Summer. I hate cold weather.
Hugs or kisses?: Hugs
Chocolate or white milk: Chocolate
Half empty or half full?: WTFOOK?
CD or DVD: DVD
Vanilla or Chocolate? CHOCOLATE!!!!
Skiing or Boarding: Boarding
Day or night: night
Sunset or sunrise: Sunset

Favourites...

Colours: Blue and black.
Food: Home cooked food. Italiano
Fast Food: Burger King and Domino's Thin Crust Pepperoni Pizza
Ice Cream Flavor: Rums and Raisins
Sport?: Football
Animal: Dogs
Music?: Anything goes. No boy bands only
Song: With or Without You - U2
Band: Jimmy Eat World
Number: 8,14,23
Actor or Actress?: Cytheria
TV show: Smallville
Clothes Brand: Polo Ralph Lauren
Saying: Nooob!

Confess thy sins..

Gotten Drunk?: A few times. It feels great to float on earth.
Broke the law?: Uhhh No?
Ran from the cops?: They caught up with me all the time.
Tried to kill yourself?: Not that stupid yet.
Made yourself throw up?: YES
Been in love?: Yes
Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: When i was small.
Did/Said something to hurt someone?: Yea, regretted till this very day.

Reach out and Tag someone...

I Tag noone.

The truth..

Weekend flew so fast i almost forgot what i did.

It's a public holiday today, i hardly had enough sleep due to the fact that i was pretty much in a fucked up state last night. Mambo messes my brain up. Thanks for the bottom's up guys.

My eye still sores. The eye drops doesnt help much. I wonder why. Aren't doctor supposed to give you something to ease the pain? Fuck.

Nothing hurts as much as seeing someone you love walking away from your life. It feels just like being hit by a bus. Straight in the face. BAM! Girls who tell you they like gentlemen are nothing but bullshit. In my honest opinion; that is.

By the sound of it, yea things started to get real messy again for the 32423748 times. I'm so fucking confused about the whole thing i feel like giving up sometimes. Am i just a piece of toy you meddle with when you feel lonely and chuck it away if you have friends around? Always blaming me for not understanding you, but did you understand me in the first place?

Fuck. You know you can't clap with 1 hand. We did everything your way. I brought my ego so low to the feet just to make you feel happy.It's not me i can tell you that. Am I not that important to you at all? Am I? What am i in the first place?

You tell me.

Yea maybe you have your own reasons. I respected you on that. But did i ever questioned your doubts?

There are things that should be said and not to be said. Maybe is your nature to tell me about who you went out with, how rich they are, or how good looking they might be.
If a person likes you so much, who wants to build new memories with you, and you tell them how good the previous 1 was, imagine how you would feel?

The hope is totally lost.

Seriously, do you hear anything from me mentioning about my ex? The past is the past. Live on with it.

Yesterday night you drop a bomb shell on me. You have no idea how much i wanted to see you. How I was counting the time before i get to see your face. I went off early just to catch you, hoping that you would still be in office and not too late for you to meet your friends in Hartamas later on after that.

Too bad for me. Your friends are much more important. All i'm left from you is the photo i kept in the car.

I guess that was it. My hope turns to bits and pieces. I drove home alone and went to bed. Thinking. Thinking what i did wrong to deserve a treatment like this. Then i remembered you saying "Don't put too much hope, don't treat me so nice, i scared i might break your heart one day".

That "one day" was yesterday night.

It tears my heart to have those words playing in my head.

You don't know how much i loved you.

You just don't know...

A father's word of life...

Compliment three people each day

Watch a sunrise at least once a year

Look people in the eye

Say "thank you a lot.

Say "please" a lot

Live beneath your means

Treat everyone you meet as you want to be treated

Make new friends but cherish the old ones

Keep secrets

Don't waste time learning the "tricks of the trade", Instead, learn the trade

Admit your mistakes

Be brave. Even if you're not pretend to be. No one can tell the difference.

Choose a charity in your community and support it generously with your time and money

Used credit cards only for convenience, never for credit.

Never cheat

Learn to listen. Opportunity mosetimes knocks very softly.

Never deprive someone of hope; it might be all he or she has

Pray not for things, but for wisdom and courage

Never take action when you're angry

Have good posture. Enter a room with purpose and confidence.

Don't discuss business on elavators. You never know who may overhear you.

Never pay for work before it's completed.

Be willing to lose a battle in order to win the war.

Don't gossip.

Beware of the person who has nothing to lose.

When facing a difficult task, act as though it is impossible to fail.

Don't spread yourself too thin. Learn to say no politely and quickly.

Don't expect life to be fair.

Never underestimate the power of forgiveness.

Instead of using the word problem, try substituting the word opportunity.

Never walk out on a quarrel with your wife.

Regarding furniture and clothes: if you think you'll be using them five years or longer, buy the best you can afford.

Be bold and courageous. When you look back on your life, you'll regret the things you didn't do more than the ones you did.

Street musicians are a treasure. Stop for a moment and listen; then leave a small donation.

When faced with a serious health problem, get at least three medical opinions.

Wage war against littering.

After encountering inferior service, food or products, bring it to the attention of the person in charge. Good manager will appreciate knowing.

Don't procrastinate. Do what needs doing when it needs to be done.

Get your priorities straigth. No one ever said on his deathbed, "Gee if I'd only spent more time at the office".

Don't be afraid to say "I don't know"

Don't be afraid to say "I'm sorry".

Make a list of 25 things you want to experience before you die. Carry it in your wallet and refer to it often.

Call your mother.


By H,Jackson Brown, Jr.

The tide subside...

For once, i'm glad to come back to work. Somebody please slap me.

Weekend was really bumpy. To begin with, things aint running smoothly as it seems to be. Had a few chats with the guys and finally realized that some things are best to see it in a whole; Not only my point of view. When i put myself in her shoes, it all make sense altogether.

Last Friday was byfar the darkest, longest day of my life. No joke. I can't believe loving someone would be this painful when you only clap with one hand. No point elaborating on it, the past is the past. One thing is for sure, I'm happy everything turns out ok.For now.

I guess we need to grow up some point in our life and start taking stuff seriously like an adult.
(cheh wah...macam lar pro sangat mamat ni)

Anyway....

Ice Age 2 is so fucking roxxor it's a sin not to watch it. Scrat is ma man. He's like the GOD of all cartoon characters. I'll worship him if he ever gets to eat the acorn =)
(For those who havent watch this movie, GO GRAB THE TICKETS NOW LOSER!!! ngekngek)
Don't hit me when you see this ok? Peace

I declare Restoran Talipon in Jalan Kuchai Lama one of the dirtiest restoran EVER in Malaysia.
Yes we are blessed with good food all around, but when you see the state of the restoran is running, it's a total disgrace to food lovers. Fungus are growing on the rundown attap roof shop like nobody's business it looks like an artist's impression of a green masterpiece painting. Used bowls and plates could be seen EVERYSINGLEFUCKINGWHERE. Rubbish are littered everywhere it looks like a garbage haven. You name it, they have it.

It's cheap though; about 20 pax per head and you eat like a king. But the first thing i did when i reached home, I paid my bills in the toilet. Total non-stop shit war for 10 minutes. Funny thing is , i don't think my shit is smelly =) Who says their shit is smelly anyway? Haha

I desperately need to party now. It's the only thing that's missing in my life right now. I NEED TO DANCE!! AND DRINK AND GET WASTED maybe.

Life is incomplete without the element of alcohol. =) and "happy 5" for some chao tut people

R.E.M- Everybody Hurts

When the day is long and the night, the night is yours alone,
when you're sure you've had enough of this life, well hang on.
Don't let yourself go, everybody cries and everybody hurts sometimes.

Sometimes everything is wrong. Now it's time to sing along.
When your day is night alone, (hold on, hold on)
if you feel like letting go, (hold on)
when you think you've had too much of this life, well hang on.

Everybody hurts. Take comfort in your friends.
Everybody hurts. Don't throw your hand. Oh, no. Don't throw your hand.

If you feel like you're alone, no, no, no, you are not alone

If you're on your own in this life, the days and nights are long,
when you think you've had too much of this life to hang on.

Well, everybody hurts sometimes,
everybody cries. And everybody hurts sometimes.
And everybody hurts sometimes. So, hold on, hold on.
Hold on, hold on. Hold on, hold on. Hold on, hold on. (repeat & fade)
(Everybody hurts. You are not alone.)