25th December

Snowflakes,
inches of snow on the walkway,
Carolling,
Cookies and warm milk,
Gifts under the x-mas tree,
Santa's magical moment,
Elves and reindeer,
melting snowman,
couple kissing under the mistletoe,

sights of christmas i wish to see every year.

Merry Christmas Everyone ! =)

First attempt on Haiku

My first haiku
Begins with bang
Ends with dang?

Friday was ecstatic
Ferry Corsten is God
Loud! Electronic! Ferocious!

His hard-earn autograph
on a lousy printed leaflet
Frame it up or Ebay?

Saturday in Finnegan's
celebrated Kit's birthday
night of drinks, dart and drama

All thing ends well,
So we thought it would,
How wrong.

No casualties,
for a free flow evening,
only one broken heart

Sunday morning in bed
Just staring at the ceiling
waiting for gold to drop.

I got a twitch
on my right eyebrow
someone's stabbing me

I spend a fortune
I don't recall
on food perhaps.

blurry and in daze
stuck between spaces
he misses her so.

writing haiku in office,
getting ridiculous
time to jump the boat

Haiku haiku haiku

Hokkien lessons

I can't stop laughing watching this.

Something to cheer the office mood =)





not funny i chop !

hehe

My Diamond Baby

No, I'm not giving out diamonds. Diamond is not my baby either.

As I remembered,mind game that my brains went cuckoo was GodTower,

then when I got stucked at question 40-ish, i stopped playing.

Not till today, when I stumble upon My Diamond Baby.

I would have been fired today if caught, because I was practically playing this game the whole day

and I haven't fucking finish it yet.

Damn susah ok.

Don't blame me if you feel like throwing ur keyboard and mouse.

My kind of night

Another warm, windless night. Everyone seems to be away.
I was too bored at home , I went for a walk.
As usual, the neighbourhood was quiet as a soul.
The only noise I hear was my own footsteps.
My light took two minutes and 45 seconds to be exact.
Evaporated together with the time i intend to kill.
My shadow blends well with the trees,
It gave me the sense that I wasn't alone.
A lost man stopped to ask for directions.
I directed him hoping he'll reach safely.
Look to the skies, there wasn't any stars,
Only clouds that hid the moon so shy.
A frog lay still on an unfamiliar ground,
My leg was inches away from ending its life.
It never move, it never jump.
What a brave green frog, I said to myself.
I wish I had a dog to walk with me,
Just like the one I saw that day.
Call me mad, call me sad.
At least I had my mango with me.

Spellbound

"To him she seemed so beautiful, so seductive, so different from ordinary people,
that he could not understand why no one was as disturbed
as he by the clicking of her heels on the paving stones,
why no one else's heart was wild with the breeze stirred by the sighs of her veils,
why everyone did not go mad with the movements of her braid,
the flight of her hands, the gold of her laughter.
He had not missed a single one of her gestures, not one of the indications of her character,
but he did not dare approach her for fear of destroying the spell- Gabriel Garcia Marquez "

The last month

The growing intense politics in my company is driving me up the wall. The bosses just wouldn't listen to what the subordinates have to say. He just side the wrong side all the time and it's jeopardizing the mood and the morale.
There is not a single doubt in my mind that if I have a chance to drill some sense into his brain, I would do it, IMMEDIATELY.
I'm contented but will definitely move on if better opportunity arises. Heck, the company still owes me 5 off days. I just hate the undecisive decisions and last minute calls.

Getting on is the last month of the year. We are in the month of December and Christmas is just around the corner ! What the heck happened to the last 11 months? It's a shame that no major celebration is going to take place this year. Everyone has their own plans way earlier before we can decide on a small party. Just too bad.

Make a date this middle of the month with non other than the God of Trance; Ferry Corsten !! I'll be going there , 101% guarantee. His sets are bound to lift the mood. =) Remember, don't get wasted before he plays. Been awhile since my last clubbing scene, but this is a cannot miss event.


Tommorow is going to be bulat's birthday, so I'm going to wish him earlier here;

Happy Birthday Shannon Lung !!

keep on beroxxing !

ps: pictures will be up after QC =)

Sentence

The evening spells excitement
Been awhile since her radiance light the night
She smells like angels ought to smell
I fire up a cigarette and hands her mine tasting her lips on it
and suddenly my heart's pounding so loud I can't hear anything else
All the things I see in your eyes, the perfect eyes
So calm and innocent it sparkles like stars in a clear bright sky
She's soft and warm and almost weightless
Her perfume is sweet promise that brings tears to my eyes
I wanted to tell her that everything will be alright
That I'll save her from whatever she's scared of and take her far far away
Finally,still pictures of her eases my sleep
I wouldn't wanna Imagine what the real thing could do
I'm too dumb to put the whole picture together yet, but
whatever she said made a heartache; her current stand and persuade
The commas and word means nothing without the fullstop.
I'm certain for sure now that I'll wait for the next sentence to start

Gemini Man

A man in this Zodiac has a thin long and proportional face.
He has a high forehead and very cleaver.
He looks like he can not stand or sit still, a very fast person.
His nose is just right in size, thin lips, talk fast and very talkative.
He can think faster than he talks, but once he start talking, he will talk non stop as if god has gifted him with that special talk machine mouth.
He likes to cut his hair short and he is very athletic.
He is a tall, slim and every movement of his is "Fast" or nearly call "Hyperactive".
He has a long fingers and always tapping on table or moving his finger as if he is trying to grab something.
He is the type who will write or scribble on paper, he never stay still.
His hair always well comb or neat.
He will spent a long time to comb his hair.
He will keep his manicure and pedicure clean.
He is a well dress and clean guy, so if you like cleanliness, you will love him.
He will keep all his cloth in big closet, and never throw away even shirts he never wear any more, but yet he still keep buying new cloths and make sure he is in style.
He knows how to dress well even with a low budget.
He get bored easily with his favorite cloths , cologne.
He is very picky, so soap and his cologne even have to be in the same trend or same scent.
If you date this kind of guy, you might think you are dating 2 guys, you will have to guess his feeling and emotion.
Is he doing thing because it is a duty, or is it because he wants to?
He change his mind as fast as he change a new pairs of shoes.
He can pick up a book and roughly read through and understand it's contents, so if you see a Gemini man who reads the whole book, then he must be influenced by other Zodiac.
He hate to set fix schedule, and dislike a boring same routine job.
He could hardly be on time, and can only keep time if it is complete important and necessary.
He does not come late because he forgets, but because he always find other attractions along the way.
He likes to act opposite to what he wants to do.
He is a very good speaker and make a very good politician.
He can easily persuade other people and well presented himself in public, a real charmer.
If he is a writer, he will write the best seller.
He always search for truth and constantly study himself.
He never satisfy about his fame, his reputation or money, because he thinks he deserved more. He will keep searching even he is not sure what is his ultimate satisfaction.
Woman in love normally wants to feel secure and stable, but if you fall in love with this guy be prepare to be alone.
He will come to see you when he feels like it.
He won't even know how he spent his days everyday, so adjust yourself if you love him.
Dating him is like dating 2 guys, so today he can tell you how much he loves you, but tomorrow he might call you to cancel your date.
When he upsets, he could tell you he hate your dress, even it is the same dress he used to tell you make you look very sexy.
Do not ask him why he is that's way for he won't have any explanations too.
When he is back to normal mood, he will take you out again and forget what just happened.
You can not expect him to be the same person now, and forever.
His changes will depend on you, for better or for worst.
If you like to take risk and dare for challenges, you will get along with him fine.
He keeps his emotional secretly as if hiding it, so you will not be able to see if he crazy in love with you, or does not give a damn at all, but be calm and patient.
He will never leave you if he thinks you are a puzzle, then he will spent times solving this puzzle.

Hmm, at least i'm human =)

Have a nice day !

A night to remember

It's always nice to deep into the pool and just float, regardless of when and purpose.
Yesterday night was simply amazing. It was Max's birthday and for the first time in many months, I enjoyed myself.
The last minute plan almost ruin the night,but luckily I made it in time to catch the guys before they headed out. I drove through jungle and heaps of road till we arrived to Paula's apartment. I must say, everyone was surprised when the place we were gonna chill was beside the pool.

The guys brought along some food and of course booze.

After getting our stomach stuffed with food, JD and I couldn't decide whether should we jump into the pool or not. Honestly, I wasn't prepared but thank goodness for the football shorts. JD made his presence noticed and went in first. I followed on after a couple of COKE and chicken wings =) .
I tell you, swimming in the middle of the night really shrink the balls out of you. It was damn freaking cold ok. Mahai. Really sok tan until cannot sok.

Paula was kind enough to bring us towel from her apartment and we managed to persuade her to the pool too. I think She's one happening cool chick at her age.

The turn off point was when a residence shouted "Do you know what time is it? It's 3 am and you guys are swimming !"

Ahaha, luckily it was a human who was shouting, not some white being with long hair standing on the edge of the hill. Apparently, the place was haunted , but who cares anyway.
In the end, we packed up and ran to the cars as if we were fleeing from a crime scene. No evidence was left behind except for ciggerete butts and chicken bones. =)

All in,it was a night to remember. This is 1 thing that I will always remember.

Happy 21st Birthday Maximilius Abbas Wan ! and stop hacking my multiply MOFO!

Tip tap tip tap

I'm bored. Are You?
If yes,feel me.





don't say i didn't warn you.

Something about the truth

Here I am half past three looking at the screen not knowing what to write.
My mind is rather empty from the hectic schedule and the morning shower awakens my urge to pen an entry.
A week has gone , a collection of thoughts linger in my already fickle mind. The harder I try to forget , the deeper it gets into the back of my head.
I've not been in this stage in a very long time, needless to say I'm contented to move. Time is the only reason I can give to start making pace again. To walk once more.

I sat in the park today, looking at children passing through mazes , swinging their way to joy and running off happily to their guardian. They looked happy. Was I once like that? I hardly could recall.
Don't get me wrong, I love my childhood. Eventhough it's the faintest of my memories, but sweet ones still lives inside me. I remembered how I almost fell to my death , scratched in the face leaving a clear scar and perhaps being caught stealing money just to buy slurpee from 7-eleven. Haha, that wasn't sweet , was it.

I had sweet ones, really. Too many to bore anyone =)
I want to be a kid again. Just for a day. I want to eat cotton candy and waste my time in the park. Or play hide and seek and never be caught. Or tell lies and still look innocent ! Or get small little pecks from strangers and have no clue why they even do it in the first place ;) . I just want to feel young again and never grow up!

24 years down the road . Amazing how it just flashes pass your very eyes. Am not enjoying every single moment of it. Should have had in the beginning and not thinking about the regrets.
Funny thing is, I'm still learning how to live. I guess something never ends till your last breath.
I wonder whether as the generation change, will life be complicated as well? I'm sure our parents have not thought about the future when they were our age. Or have they , if not we would'nt be around in the first place. =)

I believe we live in a world where 24 hours is never enough. Never enough to do anything of any interest. Especially sleeping. I have come to my sense that everything needs to be in a balance, like the nuts between the legs or the pillar that holds a building . Without balance, it will just collapse and drag you down together with the earth. Without balance, we just live in a world of selfishness and end up being a lonely sadistic chap. I'll start my balancing soon. And just wait what's coming ahead of me !

If life was a person, I'll say "bring it on mofo !"




james bond rox =)

Chasing you

I believe that sweet memories stays in you forever, and bitter ones eventually fades away.
I believe some things are made to last, and some just dissapears at the shortest of time.
I couldn't be bothered about the future because what awaits ahead is pretty scary. By the time you know it, life's too short you won't even know it's coming.

Someone told me chasing girl is like chasing cars, you wouldn't know what to do when you really have one. I presume part of it is true.

How I feel right now doesn't matter anymore because the distance kept us away. Those 3 words I couldn't say is going to die in me. The closest I've ever been is sitting next to you in movies. All that I ever was is here in your perfect eyes, they're all that I can see.
It would be a lie if I said I stopped thinking about you, because I do think about you whenever I'm alone. If I lay here, would you lie with me and forget the world?

Very late post, I'm so sleepy i don't know what I'm writing, haha . Italic phrase is taken from chasing cars by snow patrol. Really a lovely song.


and the long awaited pics are here !! Finally =) sorry too busy la

Bangla at work

Yay, I'm in the exact same spot where I was sitting on Sunday. In A Bloody Cyber CAFE in Sungai WANG !!! Woohoooo! fucking lame rite? haha

It's raining and I've done visiting outlets. And don't even think about asking me to walk around this lala-infested complex because I've already visited every nook and corner there is. Sien until can see flies flying around my cap.

Really la !

Do banglas have offdays when they work? I'm sure they do. Prolly once a week? If the answer is yes, then I admit I'm in a state where I'm worse than them. Event EVENT EVENT, Killing my Sense ! Yay it rhymes .

I've worked 12 days now without any off days. And thinking back about makes me a complete fool. Why am i so hardworking ?!! Why did i not take any MC ?!! why why why fucking hell, I'm all drained up . Tank emptying real soon.

I wanna go holiday! So badly. I just imagine myself on an island with a glass of Malibu. Was contemplating about it for quite some time already, and just yesterday there's this huge sign:

"Phuket + Pattaya = RM899 6 days 5 nights"

WHOA ! Is this godsend?

I think it is ! hahaha now the question is should I or should I not ?

So tempting sial! Can pay by credit card mah ! enjoy first, suffer later. haha

See you guys soon, running out of credit

and

Happy birthday Julian Edwin Matthew... You rox ! not

The days are gone

Sorry for the lack of updates, been pretty occupied with work and new projects.

Too many things has happened within a week or so and there were things i never thought of doing and time seems to be out of reach , constantly going too fast i hardly could catch up with.

Friends who came into my life and friends whom i no longer knew. Friends who treat u as brothers, close friends who seems to be drifting apart. I felt that the circle of friends that I hang out with are slowly stepping out 1 by 1 to make new smaller circles. It may still be connected in 1 way with your circle but things just ain't the way it used to be.

Is that part of moving on? We used to complain about the lack of 'spice' in our life and seems like everyone dig deep to find the spices and forgot about the 'pot' . Ahahah what rubbish analogy.
Anyhow, It's not a bad thing, and I'm not complaining either, it's ur life anyway. AND I'm not going to be a hero or play GOD to make everything back to normal but I do hope that our frequent yumcha session and meeting up are not limited to just birthday parties and clubbing. =/
It can be lonely sometimes, but who am i to complain?

Few days back ago in SS15, i had an incident with mother fucking snatch thief who seems to terrorise our peaceful neighbourhood nowdays. It began after my training in Streamy X outlet near SJMC. It was roughly around 8pm and the streets wasn't well lid. So, my colleague who happens to walk across to my car while talking on the phone was the victim here. She felt suspicious because there was a Malay guy with helmet walking on the road but the motor was nowhere to be seen. So we were half a feet away from my car and suddenly this guy tried to grab her sling back and handphone. She screamed and held my arm, and luckily she was close to me. I chased that fucker and got hold of his sling bag assuming that it was my colleague's. Dragged him down and i got pulled down to the ground as well. A few feet away was his mother fucking friend who was waiting on the bike tryin to get a quick escape. He got out from his bike and tried to kick me. I was on the ground and tried to kick him so that he will stay away from me. The fucker who went down with me tried to throw punches at me. I stood up and demanded the bag from them. They shouted they didn't take anything from my colleague. It was bad. Luckily there was a Kenari driving past and it stop knowing what had happen. I took down the number plate "WDC 3459". They sped off with the half ruin motorbike. It was damaged because the guy on the bike dropped his bike while trying to save his friend. This fucker tried to fool people by removing the number '3' on the bike, so if anyone tried to take their license plate would only see 3 numbers instead of 4.

It happened really quick, and who would have thought that this thing will happen ? Noone was hurt, nothing was taken, that's a good thing. But the fuckers were gone. Just be alert and be realy really careful whenever you walk on the road. You never know what might hit you next. My colleague was left traumatised by the incident, but the main thing is , she's ok.
This fuckers who commit such despicable act shall rot and burn in hell. We ain't save anymore ! Police corrupted, government siding the wrong side. Time to buy a boat and escape to an island !
Anyone with me??? Guess not.

Muddy water

Yay I'm back from a brief vacation in PD and it was really nice. Could have been better but I'm still satisfied with the presence of non-stop fun and excitement =)

Although at times, i seem to isolate myself from the crowd and for you who didnt notice and did, I'm really sorry. I used to be a bubbly chap during trip and making silly jokes but this one was different i suppose. It wasn't intentional I swear, and I didn't made my silence unnoticed.

I was baffled by the truth of being where i am right now. I'm incapable of making decisions and like many times, i try to get untangled from this web of illusion. Who am I kidding anyway, to fall in love again?

I was browsing through my list on MSN and there was this quote by a friend which really hit me.

"If holding on is as hard as letting go, which would you choose?"

Honestly i will choose to hold on. Because no matter how hard it has turn to, it's always harder for her, and all you can do is hope one day she'll realise your sincerity. By holding on means you'll stick with her through thick and thin, ignoring the negative points and accepting who she is. I presume, that's the least you can do to make someone happy.

Continuosly thinking about it, i get vivid pictures of you in my head and having that tiny moment was enough to force a smile on my face. I'm not a fortune teller who can predicts the future, or a mind reader who can encrypt a person's mind, I'm just an ordinary boy who falls for a girl and not knowing what to do.

I never made my intentions clear and I believe some things are better left unsaid. I'll just wait for the rain to come and wash away my pain. We live in a country where rain do come very often, so I guess it's ok to sulk once in a while. If it doesn't rain, don't worry, I'll sleep it off and wake up to a better morning ;) I hope.

Have a nice weekend everyone.

Blurry

The ever insecure mind has struck again.
Stuck between choices which was not meant to be in the first place.
Deciding whether to move abroad or to stay afloat
Hoping to still be in one piece when i walk out from this mess.

Sometimes I hate the me in me.
I never had the guts to be strong
Slowly it eats up my confidence
and buries my face in a six feet hole.

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A few days more till my escapade
My only time alone in nature's best gift

The beach !

I look forward to the sunset
The sinking feeling between the sands
and not the
The polluted sea water
or
The disguise breeze covered in haze

I hope it's gonna be a fine fine evening. Clear skies and good company.

A perfect match, a perfect getaway !

Intuition

I believe movies are made in such a way that it leaves a footprint in your heart. Some movies can make an impact so huge it changes a person's perception towards life.

Just the other day, i finally managed to watch "The break-up" and i'm no different from every other person who watched it, I actually hoped for a happy ending. Boy, i was so wrong.

That show made me realize there is no guarantee in this world. There's no such thing as a perfect couple or match made in heaven. It's hard to believe coming from a person who believes in love at first sight, but the reality is a harsh thing to deal with.

Who wouldn't one to have a soul mate to live happily ever after with, but only a handful succeeded in finding them. You can't basically look for them in the corner of the streets or strangers whom sat next to you during your train ride home.

MAybe love just come knocking on your door when you least expect it to be. And maybe it's up to you to make the best our of it? Who knows, it's just another worthless theory.

As for me, I'm not sure where to stand right now. Whether to believe or not to believe, because the only thing that makes me believe is you.

Buses

I was granted wings when i barely knew how to walk.

Decided to keep my wings and walk instead...

I didnt knew where I was going but it was indeed a long road. Not complaining at all cos somehow I enjoy the moment alone.

Along the way, there were nice samaritans who stopped and ask whether i needed a lift. I decline gladly because it wasn't time yet.

Everything looks foreign when you have noone to share it with.

So I finally i decided to stop and wait for the right bus to come along. Fortunately, it didn't took long and the bus i boarded was what I had dreamt off all the time.

Comfy, secure, relaxed and best of all, it was going the right direction. Needless to say, it was one of the time of my life. My legs are worned out and i badly need something to rely on to take me further.

Whilst I was in the bus, it went through seasons of rain and sunlight, been through bumpy roads and long winding pathways.

Just as I began to feel attached to it, the bus driver decided to drop me off. I was devastated because i knew i had to walk again. Wasn't given any valid reason, so I was left hanging.

Once again, I was left to use my tired legs to continue my search. For 5 long years, I've never once boarded another bus again because I knew, it will never be the same bus that I've been on before.

I was wrong. I saw the same bus that i boarded before right in front of my eyes and didnt flag it down.

I began my chase. and thankfully the bus stopped and pick me up. I sat down on the chair and began to feel at ease. Somewhat feeling that I've experienced before. The ambience and interior looks the same like it has never changed since i last recall.

Then it hit me, it's a completely different bus but the exact resemblence to the previous 1.
I smiled and doze off, hoping that it will bring me to where I'm supposed to be.

Been awhile...

Great to know that things are slowly falling into thier respective places. I'm so glad that the turbulence days are finally coming to an end. At least for momentarily.

Job is good, could have been worse. I've learned to live with it and it makes me a stronger person. Though, i'm not staying for long cos i don't enjoy what I'm doing. Especially when people screw u up at the very last minute and it wasn't entirely your fault. It get's depressing when you actually think of the nature of the work.

JAck the devil is finally back from the land of sheeps. Weeee! I sense much sins are on their way >;)
I am guilt-ridden from my previous antics of living in the shadow of alcohol weekly. So it's been awhile since my last sip and it starts to pay off cos i have more money for food ! Haha

Talking about food, the last time I weighed myself was back in April and back then it was 63 kg.
Now, i dare not step foot on the weighing machine again because ever since i found out that I am 7kg heavier, i wonder where did all the food add up to?? I don't look plump thank god for that, but the fact that every night of pounding on to supper and the lack of exercise really creeps me out of what i may become in the future. I don't want to be called a fatty =(

And Hell no i'm cutting down on food. I'll just continue eating till I realize that I don't have a neck,then I'll start applying for gym >.<

It was mid-autumn festival yesterday, and I somehow did something different compare to the previous years. Everyone deserves to celebrate it despite the heavy workload of assignments =)
Besides, it's the only day that you can actually lid a lantern and walk on the street without being catch by police . hehe

At the end of the day, I'm glad it brought smile to your face.

Who needs the moon when you can see someone else smiling? =)